10-22-2011

I am so excited and still don't know what to say because so much has happened.  So much internally, outwardly, magically and Big. I am on a vacation in the LA area.  I am seeing many many friends.  I am reconnecting with myself also.  The deep kind of connection that may not happen everyday.  And with the emotion that comes with it it isn't something you want to do everyday.   Facing my deepest fears, some call them demons.  I believe demons, evil, rude, angry, aggressive behavior is all thoughts, beliefs that has been built on broken lives, broken hearts and nothing more.  And of course the opposite is also true.  That a loving, compassionate person live in those kind of thoughts.   There is always a balance.   Too much love that you smother someone and they don't learn how to take care of themselves.  Not enough.   Then there are the beliefs that we make up about what is around us and all of the experiences has a story that fits our profile.
I won't give you a challenge today.  I will just say listen to yourself some time.  Are you speaking to yourself as a friend, an enemy, a looser, a queen\king or what?  Then listen to something that is bigger than yourself. My demons were bigger than myself and I put them in their place,  I will not be afraid of them anymore.  The blocks they put in front of me I will recognize as it is simply a thought that has gotten out of hand.   Sorry, I am the driver of my life and love, not something I made up years ago.  Bye, Bye.   I also recognize you thought you were saving my life.   And I thank you for that but I want my life another way.  One out of love, kind words, space from negative defeating thoughts.   I want to live and play in the bigger picture.  YEAH!!!  Let's do that.

10-10-2011

Yes this is the 10/10   what does that mean.  Nothing I don't think.  But the rain is upon us.  I am really focusing on being grateful for what I have and not what I don't have.   My home is wonderful and I have lots of great stuff.  That isn't the most important though.  My health and attitude allows me to love more and be more that I was when I was  hearing and seeing things in a negative way.  Creativity comes way more frequently and I trust it also.   No need to be offended by anyone's opinion.  About anything.  You are you and they are them.   We celebrate out differences. Have a great evening....and get ready for tomorrow

10-02-2011

WEll well well, can you believe we are still on that roll of months simply going by.   I get less done every month it seems.  Well, living in the moment is really taking a hold on me and I am making new friends and doing some new things.  I am moving into new areas, I am taking better care of myself.  I am listening to my mind.  and seeing what that mind has to say and how much of it is patterns.  Well, most of them are until I do something different .   Changing is changing what you do, as you change what you think.   The doing can come first.   Loving and taking care of yourself can bring abundance in many ways.  Such as an abundant amount of friends...

09/30/2011

This was an awesome day and at the same time I had a headache most of the day and I got bored or something.  I really wanted to be with a friend this evening and get dressed up etc.  But I built a fire, ate my dinner at the pond and the fire.  Then worked on my studio, my art studio, my creative space.  Getting it ready for this winter.  I will need a place to hide away and create.  I am so grateful.  I also played my guitar at the fire and that was so so so so so awesome.   Thank you

09-28-2011

I did it and I had so much fun with my music video.  I sang as good as I could.  The practicing helped and the main thing that helped was my attitude.  I could care less how many people showed up and I had fun and I don't care if no one likes it or not.  That is huge for me.  HUGE>
I realized I don't really have hot flashes much anymore also.  But I want to do more of that.  Great supportive friends and all it was awesome.   I felt in my body, confident, doing not for me but for others in some weird way.    Well, I need more of that in my life......love me

09-27-2011

Hello the day before my very first music video recording.   It is my number one hit song called,"HOT FLASH"  I have been practicing and is it enough?  We will see I will write more tomorrow after the event.  Wish me well because I have created a safe place to create.

hOW IS YOUR DAY.