10-22-2011

I am so excited and still don't know what to say because so much has happened.  So much internally, outwardly, magically and Big. I am on a vacation in the LA area.  I am seeing many many friends.  I am reconnecting with myself also.  The deep kind of connection that may not happen everyday.  And with the emotion that comes with it it isn't something you want to do everyday.   Facing my deepest fears, some call them demons.  I believe demons, evil, rude, angry, aggressive behavior is all thoughts, beliefs that has been built on broken lives, broken hearts and nothing more.  And of course the opposite is also true.  That a loving, compassionate person live in those kind of thoughts.   There is always a balance.   Too much love that you smother someone and they don't learn how to take care of themselves.  Not enough.   Then there are the beliefs that we make up about what is around us and all of the experiences has a story that fits our profile.
I won't give you a challenge today.  I will just say listen to yourself some time.  Are you speaking to yourself as a friend, an enemy, a looser, a queen\king or what?  Then listen to something that is bigger than yourself. My demons were bigger than myself and I put them in their place,  I will not be afraid of them anymore.  The blocks they put in front of me I will recognize as it is simply a thought that has gotten out of hand.   Sorry, I am the driver of my life and love, not something I made up years ago.  Bye, Bye.   I also recognize you thought you were saving my life.   And I thank you for that but I want my life another way.  One out of love, kind words, space from negative defeating thoughts.   I want to live and play in the bigger picture.  YEAH!!!  Let's do that.