What do you think about getting up at 5:00 in the morning? What do you think about getting up at 4:00 in the morning? They are all doable when it is something that needs to be done or something that you want to create. Sleeping is so important, and it is for your health, mental state and your creativity. Some work related times are early morning, some creative things are early morning.
Such as being on set for a movie, they have early usually have early call times and go for 12 to 18 hours. And then it may be for 28 days or more every day except for one day a week. You know we can do that. When we love the process, or are dedicated to the process we do it.
Even on a regular job we can find the positive drive for it, the passion to give a service to others.
Service to others is a great drive. Doing a good job in any field is a great passion. A good job is a great job ethic.
My challenge to you today is to look at your job ethic? No matter what job that is. Is it working retail? Cleaning house? Cleaning Toilets? Creating million dollar works? What do you think when you do the work? Do you make it as pleasant as possible or do you find faults in every thing that doesn't go the way you thought it should. If you have ever worked on a movie set you know that things just don't go as planned and I see that in every aspect of work, life, or creativity. So get over it!! It doesn't really matter. We all get frustrated and knowing how to let it out and letting it go is how to stay healthy. Have a great creative evening and get up with me at 4:00am tomorrow and see how it goes, I am knowing the best day ever is now and coming.
Newest Cooper
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
01-30-10
Oh, my gosh. It will be February soon, I can't believe it!! But for today I want to talk about stress, stress and the body. I have been seeing people crumble from stress. And that is not really crumble but become crippled. This is not fun for anyone. I know I have been there. I believe my scoliosis became much worse under stress and at an older age. It was so bad at one time I couldn't get off the floor.
I am seeing how stress has been changing peoples body's in my life right now. I saw it coming with my boss, I even told my husband that she was going down hill, you could see it in her appearance and you could hear it in what she talked about and how she saw the world treating her. She turned the outside inward and really got caught up in it. She can barely walk, barely make it to work and she doesn't look so good right now. I know...I have been there, done that.
I have come to know that my stress is energy caught inside of me. Whatever I don't want to deal with, or what I don't want to feel. The flow of energy that is natural gets stopped by our fear, our doubts, stress or what we perceive as stress. This energy needs to flow like a river. Even if there is a big rock in the river it will flow around and over it until it turns to sand. That is nature. But if you totally stop the flow you turn into the rock. I see it over and over. We don't want to feel, we believe we have it under control, we can deal with it. That is all well and good but on some level you have to acknowledge that it is there and then let it go, let it flow. Stuck is stuck. Flow is flow. I don't know how else to put it right now....
My challenge to you is to see where you flow and where you are stuck. Really, stuck is stuck. It may be something you don't want to deal with, or feel but you are stuck because you can't see the bigger picture. You are not that! You are life itself and not the stuff we get so stuck on.
Go out there and flow...Go and Flow.....And I will take a look at this myself.
I am seeing how stress has been changing peoples body's in my life right now. I saw it coming with my boss, I even told my husband that she was going down hill, you could see it in her appearance and you could hear it in what she talked about and how she saw the world treating her. She turned the outside inward and really got caught up in it. She can barely walk, barely make it to work and she doesn't look so good right now. I know...I have been there, done that.
I have come to know that my stress is energy caught inside of me. Whatever I don't want to deal with, or what I don't want to feel. The flow of energy that is natural gets stopped by our fear, our doubts, stress or what we perceive as stress. This energy needs to flow like a river. Even if there is a big rock in the river it will flow around and over it until it turns to sand. That is nature. But if you totally stop the flow you turn into the rock. I see it over and over. We don't want to feel, we believe we have it under control, we can deal with it. That is all well and good but on some level you have to acknowledge that it is there and then let it go, let it flow. Stuck is stuck. Flow is flow. I don't know how else to put it right now....
My challenge to you is to see where you flow and where you are stuck. Really, stuck is stuck. It may be something you don't want to deal with, or feel but you are stuck because you can't see the bigger picture. You are not that! You are life itself and not the stuff we get so stuck on.
Go out there and flow...Go and Flow.....And I will take a look at this myself.
Friday, January 29, 2010
01-29-10
Touch this life as you will by Linda Burden-Williams
Touch this life as you will,
Let the barriers and prison walls fall,
I lay down my weapons of words, thoughts and beliefs.
I release all control.
I breathe my body's breath of swirling energy.
I confess of not knowing anything.
The nothingness is what takes shape.
Out of whispers creation appears.
It is what we perceive as something.
Where a spark explodes into existence.
This is creation at it's finest.
A gentle nudge of love for all.
I am just taking what is given to me in my morning meditation. It has been a while since I have heard, or I have listened closely enough to hear what is happening in me.
These days have been filled with many new ideas. I am doing 2 to 5 different things at once. I flow from one thing to another. From painting to metal to wood, to my guitar, to writing. This means I have created a safe place to create. To have this safe place I still have to go with the flow of outside energy's, whether it be a person. a phone call or the mail. Then slip back into the flow. Not an easy thing to do. But I am working on it. Because I want my life to be about creating not just stale old energy and patterns that don't serve me anymore.
My challenge to you is to see what makes you flow, what stops your flow, if you are interrupted can you get back into the flow. This is my challenge and I want to make it yours. Good Creating.
Touch this life as you will,
Let the barriers and prison walls fall,
I lay down my weapons of words, thoughts and beliefs.
I release all control.
I breathe my body's breath of swirling energy.
I confess of not knowing anything.
The nothingness is what takes shape.
Out of whispers creation appears.
It is what we perceive as something.
Where a spark explodes into existence.
This is creation at it's finest.
A gentle nudge of love for all.
I am just taking what is given to me in my morning meditation. It has been a while since I have heard, or I have listened closely enough to hear what is happening in me.
These days have been filled with many new ideas. I am doing 2 to 5 different things at once. I flow from one thing to another. From painting to metal to wood, to my guitar, to writing. This means I have created a safe place to create. To have this safe place I still have to go with the flow of outside energy's, whether it be a person. a phone call or the mail. Then slip back into the flow. Not an easy thing to do. But I am working on it. Because I want my life to be about creating not just stale old energy and patterns that don't serve me anymore.
My challenge to you is to see what makes you flow, what stops your flow, if you are interrupted can you get back into the flow. This is my challenge and I want to make it yours. Good Creating.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
01-28-10
MY TEARS by linda burden-williams
My tears painted a picture upon rising.
The Universal Orchestra played gently in my soul.
The power that makes the stars, rose and fell with each breath.
Bright freedom floating from Nebula to Nebula.
The sweet smell of space washed through me, no beginning, no end.
This is where it all happens.
It is what is real.
It is in me, around me, everywhere.
The colors radiate love, flowing peace, beauty, power, breath or no breath.
It simply is.
I know this to be true.
The tears are of joy, sadness, of longing for home and coming home.
LOVE IS THE GLUE.
I saw a gentleman writing on his computer in Borders yesterday before my part time job and the form on his computer looked like poetry and I was inspired. First I was jealous that he got to sit and write and I had to go to work.... but I thought I want to write what is on my mind, what is in my soul, what is given me. That must have inspired me.
When I woke up this morning and my meditation brought a few tears, I listened to what I may need to say. I didn't judge, I simply let the energy move. I was very grateful, I think that is what is missing from this morning universal message is the gratefulness.
The challenge of the day is what inspires you? Seeing someone else in the art shop, at the book store, seeing a piece of art. Going to a recycle sight? Seeing someone else get the part, get the book deal, selling their wares? Take a look at what motivates you to the point you move, you decide to create, you are the creator. GO FORTH MY DEAR CREATORS....the cosmos are with you!
My tears painted a picture upon rising.
The Universal Orchestra played gently in my soul.
The power that makes the stars, rose and fell with each breath.
Bright freedom floating from Nebula to Nebula.
The sweet smell of space washed through me, no beginning, no end.
This is where it all happens.
It is what is real.
It is in me, around me, everywhere.
The colors radiate love, flowing peace, beauty, power, breath or no breath.
It simply is.
I know this to be true.
The tears are of joy, sadness, of longing for home and coming home.
LOVE IS THE GLUE.
I saw a gentleman writing on his computer in Borders yesterday before my part time job and the form on his computer looked like poetry and I was inspired. First I was jealous that he got to sit and write and I had to go to work.... but I thought I want to write what is on my mind, what is in my soul, what is given me. That must have inspired me.
When I woke up this morning and my meditation brought a few tears, I listened to what I may need to say. I didn't judge, I simply let the energy move. I was very grateful, I think that is what is missing from this morning universal message is the gratefulness.
The challenge of the day is what inspires you? Seeing someone else in the art shop, at the book store, seeing a piece of art. Going to a recycle sight? Seeing someone else get the part, get the book deal, selling their wares? Take a look at what motivates you to the point you move, you decide to create, you are the creator. GO FORTH MY DEAR CREATORS....the cosmos are with you!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
01-27-10
OK. I am thinking about people that suck you dry. I read an article about being around supportive people and not people that are energy vampires, or psychological vampires that may want to sabotage you and your ideas or you creativity. Have you ever been excited about this idea that popped into you brain and shared it with someone, and they immediately burst your enthusiasm into doubt. I have had that happen quite a few times. Sometimes I speak to soon, or I can't explain my idea in such detail that another may get the drift. And then sometimes I think people don't want to hear excitement in your voice and they may not have had a good exciting idea in a while. They are stuck and they would really like it to have everyone around them stuck also. I don't think people do this on purpose, but I have heard some really do try and sabotage you at an audition. I believe better in people than that.
Have you ever been used as an example, a bad example at a seminar or class or in front of your peers. I have. It devastated me for years, I stopped writing songs for a while because of it. I stopped singing for years because of it. I stopped playing bass because of it. Do you think there is a pattern here. Yes, there is. And I do know this. I haven't been used as an example for quite a while. I am letting go of the victim that brought this on over and over. If I do something wrong or not how others want, I let go as fast as I can. That is not who I am it is simply something that I did that may not have been the best way to do something. I am human and I am much more humble also.
My challenge today for you and me is to really look at who supports our creative ideas, who fills us with fears and or doubts. Who loves us even with our patterns, who loves us even with our creative ideas they may not understand but they are still there for you. There is a big difference between people that may not see your vision but still believes in you and supports you than a person that hears the idea and just thinks it is stupid, dumb and no chance of going anywhere. Wow, I don't want to be around that last person I discribed, it made me uncomfortable just writing about that kind of energy. I support you in your creative vision.
Go For IT!!!!
Have you ever been used as an example, a bad example at a seminar or class or in front of your peers. I have. It devastated me for years, I stopped writing songs for a while because of it. I stopped singing for years because of it. I stopped playing bass because of it. Do you think there is a pattern here. Yes, there is. And I do know this. I haven't been used as an example for quite a while. I am letting go of the victim that brought this on over and over. If I do something wrong or not how others want, I let go as fast as I can. That is not who I am it is simply something that I did that may not have been the best way to do something. I am human and I am much more humble also.
My challenge today for you and me is to really look at who supports our creative ideas, who fills us with fears and or doubts. Who loves us even with our patterns, who loves us even with our creative ideas they may not understand but they are still there for you. There is a big difference between people that may not see your vision but still believes in you and supports you than a person that hears the idea and just thinks it is stupid, dumb and no chance of going anywhere. Wow, I don't want to be around that last person I discribed, it made me uncomfortable just writing about that kind of energy. I support you in your creative vision.
Go For IT!!!!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
01-26-10
Home from the coast and I really felt a little stress creeping in. I will take a look at that but I simply tried to soak in all of what I saw and felt and will be taking that to welding this evening to class. I was looking forward to that. I have a few new designs in my mind and will be learning a whole new way to weld. I have learned 3 already and like MIG the best so far.
Saw many things that inspired me at the ocean and the art galleys. I really want nature to inspire me more than others works. I also want to have my own body of work.
I have no idea what that will be right now, it could be welding, painting, bead work, music or even writing.
Sometimes I really think I have too many different things going on and not one thing that I do and focus only on that. As you notice I didn't even write down acting and that is what I gave 20 years of my life to. I was so excited and grateful that I had found something I was passionate about it was a craft of a lifetime.
Acting. But I lost that passion and I think the politics really had something to do with that. Can we get tired of giving, doing, putting out money, networking and not seeing results. The answer is YES. Also I believe an amount of disappointment, unmet expectations put a damper on my drive. I was very successful and loved it. I don't love the stress anymore. I am in a short film and am very excited to be acting. Because it went back to being fun, I don't have to keep the rent on an apartment up and audition (if you get so lucky as to audition).
My challenge is to flow with what you may be filled up with. Are you filled with anger? frustration? nature? I will take what I am filled up with to welding class and see what happens.
What are filled up with?
Saw many things that inspired me at the ocean and the art galleys. I really want nature to inspire me more than others works. I also want to have my own body of work.
I have no idea what that will be right now, it could be welding, painting, bead work, music or even writing.
Sometimes I really think I have too many different things going on and not one thing that I do and focus only on that. As you notice I didn't even write down acting and that is what I gave 20 years of my life to. I was so excited and grateful that I had found something I was passionate about it was a craft of a lifetime.
Acting. But I lost that passion and I think the politics really had something to do with that. Can we get tired of giving, doing, putting out money, networking and not seeing results. The answer is YES. Also I believe an amount of disappointment, unmet expectations put a damper on my drive. I was very successful and loved it. I don't love the stress anymore. I am in a short film and am very excited to be acting. Because it went back to being fun, I don't have to keep the rent on an apartment up and audition (if you get so lucky as to audition).
My challenge is to flow with what you may be filled up with. Are you filled with anger? frustration? nature? I will take what I am filled up with to welding class and see what happens.
What are filled up with?
Monday, January 25, 2010
01-25-10
Breathe in the One Breath that we all Breathe. That was on my mind as my meditation reminds me every morning. What that means to me is that we are connected to everyone and everything. And this connection may be more than most want to admit. Especially in times of divorce, addiction, conflict and even war.
For creating I have the thought when I get an inspiring idea I had better step up and listen, as it is out in the ether and on my breathe. I have spoke of this before in this blog. Taking it one step farther I will challenge you and myself to get started on any idea that jumps or flows into our thought process. Getting started, draw it, make a call whatever it takes to get a jump start to a new idea. If it is out in the ether you had better do it because someone else will.
I will be traveling today and stepping into Seaside, OR and checking out the art there. I am so excited to be filled up again today with the coast, art and family. The challenge for me is to take a little notebook and I will jot down my ideas today. That means I have to step into jump starting. I like that, JUMP START your creativity.
For creating I have the thought when I get an inspiring idea I had better step up and listen, as it is out in the ether and on my breathe. I have spoke of this before in this blog. Taking it one step farther I will challenge you and myself to get started on any idea that jumps or flows into our thought process. Getting started, draw it, make a call whatever it takes to get a jump start to a new idea. If it is out in the ether you had better do it because someone else will.
I will be traveling today and stepping into Seaside, OR and checking out the art there. I am so excited to be filled up again today with the coast, art and family. The challenge for me is to take a little notebook and I will jot down my ideas today. That means I have to step into jump starting. I like that, JUMP START your creativity.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
01-24-10
This wonderful Sunday at the coast in Washington State is gray, rainy and we are simply taking it a moment at a time. I couldn't sleep last night, what is that about? Have you ever went past your point? There is a point in time when you get tired or wind down and if you force yourself past that point my body freaks out. My heart pounded hard all night and no matter what I thought or tried to focus on, didn't help a bit. I am so glad I didn't have to get up and shoot a movie or something.
I have a family that understands these kinds of things. I am grateful.
So how does this effect me? It makes it a supportive, loving atmosphere. I didn't have to do what they did. I didn't have to be what they wanted. I got to take care of myself in the way that I needed to do.
Today I am soaking in my sister-in-laws beautiful artwork that she fills her house with. I am soaking up different magazines and ideas that I don't get a chance to see. Fill myself up. Fill me up world.
My challenge to you is to allow the fill-up. What does that mean to you? It means looking, seeing in a new way, exploring things I may not always look at. It may mean simply being quiet and not worrying, or seeking, or trying, just being. Yes, being in the moment and accepting you the way you are. We all have our flaws, our doubts, our fears, and we may even hurt people with some of our tendencies. And yes, we have to accept those and quiet our minds and trust that it is all OK. This is about allowing, accepting and filling up. Don't stop the flow. Fill-up, love and trust. Your creativity needs to get rest, get to relax and loves to get filled up. We have a whole new week to look forward too. Take the challenge!
I have a family that understands these kinds of things. I am grateful.
So how does this effect me? It makes it a supportive, loving atmosphere. I didn't have to do what they did. I didn't have to be what they wanted. I got to take care of myself in the way that I needed to do.
Today I am soaking in my sister-in-laws beautiful artwork that she fills her house with. I am soaking up different magazines and ideas that I don't get a chance to see. Fill myself up. Fill me up world.
My challenge to you is to allow the fill-up. What does that mean to you? It means looking, seeing in a new way, exploring things I may not always look at. It may mean simply being quiet and not worrying, or seeking, or trying, just being. Yes, being in the moment and accepting you the way you are. We all have our flaws, our doubts, our fears, and we may even hurt people with some of our tendencies. And yes, we have to accept those and quiet our minds and trust that it is all OK. This is about allowing, accepting and filling up. Don't stop the flow. Fill-up, love and trust. Your creativity needs to get rest, get to relax and loves to get filled up. We have a whole new week to look forward too. Take the challenge!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
01-23-10
What do I want to say today? I want to talk about a change that has been occurring since I have been doing this blog is, I am more creative. And I have stopped myself from getting down on myself as much. I have been seeing how something will happen and I always thought it was about me. But everyone is thinking of themselves most of the time. If someone is grumpy it is not because I did something it is usually because they are tired, hungry or even mad at themselves.
Today I got to go to the movie rehearsal, and the girl that plays my best friend was not having a good day and she didn't know her lines. She was kind of rude and short with me and then actually didn't answer a couple of questions that I asked her directly. Of course "she doesn't like me"
And then I remembered how her morning had went one thing after another, on and on. And I said to myself, I don't think she is even thinking about me and if she doesn't like me it doesn't even matter. I created a safe place for me and I had fun. I let go of her and her stuff and my stuff around her stuff.
My challenge for you and me today is to see where we may think we caused someone to be short or not in a good mood, or they actually snapped at us. Take a look and say, "hey, maybe it isn't all about me." Have a great day my dear creative friends.
Today I got to go to the movie rehearsal, and the girl that plays my best friend was not having a good day and she didn't know her lines. She was kind of rude and short with me and then actually didn't answer a couple of questions that I asked her directly. Of course "she doesn't like me"
And then I remembered how her morning had went one thing after another, on and on. And I said to myself, I don't think she is even thinking about me and if she doesn't like me it doesn't even matter. I created a safe place for me and I had fun. I let go of her and her stuff and my stuff around her stuff.
My challenge for you and me today is to see where we may think we caused someone to be short or not in a good mood, or they actually snapped at us. Take a look and say, "hey, maybe it isn't all about me." Have a great day my dear creative friends.
Friday, January 22, 2010
01-22-10
Welcome to Blog day #22. I am wanting to watch the movie that inspired me to even start this blog. Julia & Julie. And yes, Meryl won a Golden Globe for her performance. I laughed and cried in that movie and saw how sometimes when you are wondering around and unsure you need to make a commitment. That is why I committed to this creative blog. As soon as I said committed I got a little glump in my tummy. (Don't know what a glump is but I just created it). Maybe committment is a tough one for people. I find if I have a dead line or a commitment I will get it done. And at the same time I have lines I feel I need to have memorized by tomorrow morning and I have been busy with other things.....what other things?
Let us take a look at commitment today. I have 4 creative friends and I have 4 creative ventures in the works with them and then my own ideas that pop up. Have I committed to them fully? Can I commit fully? I have many family things, church things, making a living thing, all of these going on at the same time. You know what? I am committed. I contacted all of these co-creators and gave what I could to each. We are moving forward on all 4 adventures.
My challenge to today as I said earlier is commitment. Does that word put a glump in your stomach or your throat? Wow! Take a look at what you commit to and why you commit. Do you do it to please, do you not commit out of fear, is there other words that would work better for you like let us proceed in that direction and see how it goes. Just take a look. Thanks for the connection, the commitment and all is well.
Let us take a look at commitment today. I have 4 creative friends and I have 4 creative ventures in the works with them and then my own ideas that pop up. Have I committed to them fully? Can I commit fully? I have many family things, church things, making a living thing, all of these going on at the same time. You know what? I am committed. I contacted all of these co-creators and gave what I could to each. We are moving forward on all 4 adventures.
My challenge to today as I said earlier is commitment. Does that word put a glump in your stomach or your throat? Wow! Take a look at what you commit to and why you commit. Do you do it to please, do you not commit out of fear, is there other words that would work better for you like let us proceed in that direction and see how it goes. Just take a look. Thanks for the connection, the commitment and all is well.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
01-21-10
Why is today so important? Just because it is. We are co- creators of this day, we are living in this day. And you know what? That was not what I planned to write about but I just listened to what was coming out.
I had an art date and it was great and it went by way to fast. I had a painting that I had started a long time ago with this wonderful new artist friend and then I was faced with having to finish it. Guess what happened? Fear, doubt, it won't be right, I can't do it, I don't know how to do it. But the good thing was she talked me down, take a deep breath, just relax, what do you do well?
Well, from my last blog I don't do straight lines to well even if the tree needs to be straight. I have more of a dancer kind of line. That advice gave me permission to do the dance. We looked at the picture from afar and saw I was trying to make it perfect and straight instead of dancing like I do.
So my challenge is "Can you even see what works for you?" Do you need a trusted friend to help you see your greatness and not what you see as your faults (there are plenty that will pick out your faults and I am sure you are good at being your own worst critic). My friend was there to shake me up out of my regular ideas of how to do things, or how to look at things and made the picture work. It is one of my best paintings have ever done and I am very proud of it. I challenge you and I will challenge myself with the question, "Can you accept what works for you, even though it may not be the way you thought it would be, or how you think it should be?
I think the main focus here is how does the mind talk get in the way? A safe place to create has to be safe in your mind, with the friends you choose, hopefully your home and family. I am going to take a look at all of these places because today is a day to celebrate, a day to create, a day to live. Love Me
I had an art date and it was great and it went by way to fast. I had a painting that I had started a long time ago with this wonderful new artist friend and then I was faced with having to finish it. Guess what happened? Fear, doubt, it won't be right, I can't do it, I don't know how to do it. But the good thing was she talked me down, take a deep breath, just relax, what do you do well?
Well, from my last blog I don't do straight lines to well even if the tree needs to be straight. I have more of a dancer kind of line. That advice gave me permission to do the dance. We looked at the picture from afar and saw I was trying to make it perfect and straight instead of dancing like I do.
So my challenge is "Can you even see what works for you?" Do you need a trusted friend to help you see your greatness and not what you see as your faults (there are plenty that will pick out your faults and I am sure you are good at being your own worst critic). My friend was there to shake me up out of my regular ideas of how to do things, or how to look at things and made the picture work. It is one of my best paintings have ever done and I am very proud of it. I challenge you and I will challenge myself with the question, "Can you accept what works for you, even though it may not be the way you thought it would be, or how you think it should be?
I think the main focus here is how does the mind talk get in the way? A safe place to create has to be safe in your mind, with the friends you choose, hopefully your home and family. I am going to take a look at all of these places because today is a day to celebrate, a day to create, a day to live. Love Me
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
01-20-10
Celebrate the Differences. What I found out from my welding class last night is my mind does work in a certain way. I if mine does that that gives me a sign that every ones minds work differently. I would like to thing everyone thought my way then I would be right all the time. And that is a human trait I would just as soon get rid of and say, "Wow, I never thought of it that way, tell me more about how you see it." Instead of saying or thinking, "They are so wrong". Because in this world of outside things I don't like to make conflict and I will do anything to not be in conflict, including tensing up inside and getting righteous. Who Knew?
What I realized last night. I can't weld straight to safe my life. I would try and connect these two pieces of metal and off I go, I take a look and I have moved an inch from straight. I did this over and over and over. Then I looked at the welding and it was a dancing girl. So quickly welded like a painting 2 other dancing girls. My 3 dancing girls was a breakthrough. Then I made trees and more trees, a heart and then I tried to weld straight as a design. And as long as I was trying to make a straight tree, or the land was straight, I had a much better chance. I saw thay my brain was used to drawing, painting, creating on that level. But tell me I have to go straight for the sake of that, I got all tense and had no idea how to do it and it was so frustrating. I came home with many pieces of art. My 3 dancing girls, my trees, a heart and then just a random design.
My challenge for me and you today is take a look at how your brain works. Now that I saw that from welding Ialso saw how I made my husband wrong in my head. He has a living right to have his differences, doesn't make him wrong. Doesn't make me right, it simply is. The challenge is to ackowledge the differences even if it is simply in your own mind. My tension released and I can live in a more loving, creative, celebrating world today.
What I realized last night. I can't weld straight to safe my life. I would try and connect these two pieces of metal and off I go, I take a look and I have moved an inch from straight. I did this over and over and over. Then I looked at the welding and it was a dancing girl. So quickly welded like a painting 2 other dancing girls. My 3 dancing girls was a breakthrough. Then I made trees and more trees, a heart and then I tried to weld straight as a design. And as long as I was trying to make a straight tree, or the land was straight, I had a much better chance. I saw thay my brain was used to drawing, painting, creating on that level. But tell me I have to go straight for the sake of that, I got all tense and had no idea how to do it and it was so frustrating. I came home with many pieces of art. My 3 dancing girls, my trees, a heart and then just a random design.
My challenge for me and you today is take a look at how your brain works. Now that I saw that from welding Ialso saw how I made my husband wrong in my head. He has a living right to have his differences, doesn't make him wrong. Doesn't make me right, it simply is. The challenge is to ackowledge the differences even if it is simply in your own mind. My tension released and I can live in a more loving, creative, celebrating world today.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
01-19-10
I dreamed a dream. Susan Boyl is on Oprah. Can you believe that wondrous story? She wanted to sing and knew she could sing, but she doesn't look like a singer. Her gift got to be given. I am so glad. How many of us have that kind of monster talent and we don't keep up the dream. I know I have given up a few dreams. One of being a Rock Star and one being a Movie Star walking on the red carpet. I actually walked on a Red Carpet and it was awesome. But to make the money like a star I think not.
Just got back from the ocean, it was a cleansing trip and I do feel clearer. More focused and ready to go to class, my welding class. Learning a new thing expands all of our other ventures.
My challenge today is to keep a quiet mind, a focused mind. I want to challenge you to quiet the mind and to simply sit with yourself. I will!
Just got back from the ocean, it was a cleansing trip and I do feel clearer. More focused and ready to go to class, my welding class. Learning a new thing expands all of our other ventures.
My challenge today is to keep a quiet mind, a focused mind. I want to challenge you to quiet the mind and to simply sit with yourself. I will!
Monday, January 18, 2010
01-18-10
Ego wants and Soul desires, is there a difference? Yes, I believe there is. My ego is full of false beliefs and decisions I made when I was 3 years old of how this world works. Mainly to keep me safe, to not upset the balance of the dysfunctional home. I really can't imagine a home that didn't have it's ups and downs, abuse, to many rules, not enough rules. Every child is put into a world and has to survive it. They may become pleasers, they may hide who they truly are, worthlessness, not good enough, too good for others, who knows what these young and hungry minds make up.
On the Soul side, I must say we can possibly get into a war of words, ideas and/or beliefs. The soul to me is what nature desired, why you are here on this earth. You don't have to be religious, spiritual or anything like that, but you were born and you are a part of nature, your hair grows, your fingernails grow, you are a part of something bigger than you, or your stories, your past decisions of how things work. There is room for change.
Yes, we make up story's of how the world works. And then oh, my gosh, we keep them into our adulthood. Does that work? Well for me, not so much. Does it serve you? As we move forward into creating we are using the past to create the future. That just doesn't work for me.
The energy on this planet is here to support us, nurture us, take care of us and create what we are here to create. This is what I am saying with, "a safe place to create". We need to do this, have this, so we can create what we are here to create for the good of all mankind.
Challenge of the day is to take a look at what serves you, does judgment serve you? Does inner conflict? Does self doubt? Does past disappointments and expectations serve you? We can learn from things, but reliving them over and over doesn't have to be the path of this day's creativity. I am still on the very stormy Oregon coast and I am taking this challenge.
On the Soul side, I must say we can possibly get into a war of words, ideas and/or beliefs. The soul to me is what nature desired, why you are here on this earth. You don't have to be religious, spiritual or anything like that, but you were born and you are a part of nature, your hair grows, your fingernails grow, you are a part of something bigger than you, or your stories, your past decisions of how things work. There is room for change.
Yes, we make up story's of how the world works. And then oh, my gosh, we keep them into our adulthood. Does that work? Well for me, not so much. Does it serve you? As we move forward into creating we are using the past to create the future. That just doesn't work for me.
The energy on this planet is here to support us, nurture us, take care of us and create what we are here to create. This is what I am saying with, "a safe place to create". We need to do this, have this, so we can create what we are here to create for the good of all mankind.
Challenge of the day is to take a look at what serves you, does judgment serve you? Does inner conflict? Does self doubt? Does past disappointments and expectations serve you? We can learn from things, but reliving them over and over doesn't have to be the path of this day's creativity. I am still on the very stormy Oregon coast and I am taking this challenge.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
01-17-10
Let us take a look at disappointment. I am watching the Golden Globes on the Oregon Coast for a get away. What am I getting away from? I thought I would just sit here and let the oceans waves which are fast and furious on this January Sunday. And my room gives me a view of those awesome waves. The power, the energy, or the clearing?
So I am on a mission of creation or co-creating with the power of the waves, with the mountains, the rain, the storms, whatever is given me. And I am watching the Golden Globes.
I do have to say my dream was to be on one of these award shows. I knew I could do it. I was so excited to be passionate about something for years and this craft of acting is a journey of a lifetime.
So, where am I now? I went forward and spent much monies for my craft and have had great response and credits. But was it enough? NO!!
I stepped into the pit of disappointment. What did I do wrong? I am thinking the right thing, so what happened? Well, I don't know what happened. I do know that all that I have done has brought something new, my next step, my destiny, I don't know.
I do know that sometimes you have to face your disappointments, your expectations, your dreams and LET GO! Move，Movement，、Challenge： Loo可. Look at your expectations, disappointments and see where that leaves you. It could be a grand new place!!
So I am on a mission of creation or co-creating with the power of the waves, with the mountains, the rain, the storms, whatever is given me. And I am watching the Golden Globes.
I do have to say my dream was to be on one of these award shows. I knew I could do it. I was so excited to be passionate about something for years and this craft of acting is a journey of a lifetime.
So, where am I now? I went forward and spent much monies for my craft and have had great response and credits. But was it enough? NO!!
I stepped into the pit of disappointment. What did I do wrong? I am thinking the right thing, so what happened? Well, I don't know what happened. I do know that all that I have done has brought something new, my next step, my destiny, I don't know.
I do know that sometimes you have to face your disappointments, your expectations, your dreams and LET GO! Move，Movement，、Challenge： Loo可. Look at your expectations, disappointments and see where that leaves you. It could be a grand new place!!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
01-16-10
Inspiration. Where does it come from? What inspires you? I give you the challenge right off the back. Write 10 things that inspire you. Movies surely do. I am writing this blog because of Julia & Julie and her blogging idea. What a commitment. That is inspiring right there. A year long commitment.
So Movies, music, movement, certain websites, book stores, books, magazines, hearing others, communication, nature is very inspiring. So I did my 10.
We went and saw Avatar today and I was inspired by the beauty of the world James Cameron created. Of course we have all heard that every story has been told many times, it is finding a new way to express yourself through the age old stories.
Inspiration gets stale sometimes, I am ready to recharge with an ocean trip. So I will be blogging from the Oregon Coast. My little heart needs new air, new surroundings, rest and love. Lil linda, lil elle jae, all need new breathe breathing into her, into me, into my creations.
Of course I am taking new notebooks, sketch book, idea book the whole deal.......You will be there with me......see you tomorrow at the beach.
So Movies, music, movement, certain websites, book stores, books, magazines, hearing others, communication, nature is very inspiring. So I did my 10.
We went and saw Avatar today and I was inspired by the beauty of the world James Cameron created. Of course we have all heard that every story has been told many times, it is finding a new way to express yourself through the age old stories.
Inspiration gets stale sometimes, I am ready to recharge with an ocean trip. So I will be blogging from the Oregon Coast. My little heart needs new air, new surroundings, rest and love. Lil linda, lil elle jae, all need new breathe breathing into her, into me, into my creations.
Of course I am taking new notebooks, sketch book, idea book the whole deal.......You will be there with me......see you tomorrow at the beach.
Friday, January 15, 2010
01-15-10
Art Date: I am having an art date with myself. I had it with a friend of mine but she had to get training for a new job. Our art dates keep getting scrunched by life. By things that we have to do. So I kept the date with myself.
We were going to do a Soul Collage, she learned how to get the ego out of the way and go for the soul. I don't know how to get past the ego sometimes. I had an idea for a collage art piece, where we use our photos, then could be painting and or colored pencils. And then you go to a copy store and make a copy of the art piece. I have a piece I bought from an artist years ago and I still love it. I am using my photos, and magazine photos and my art. So my artist date is awesome.
I am designing a great dinner for my son and husband also. We are co creators and I am co creating.
A challenge for you. Make an Art Date with a friend and if the friend can't make it do it yourself. It could be a movie, going to a gallery, pulling out pieces from a magazine, what do you want to do? What is your souls desire? I am still going to look for that?
We were going to do a Soul Collage, she learned how to get the ego out of the way and go for the soul. I don't know how to get past the ego sometimes. I had an idea for a collage art piece, where we use our photos, then could be painting and or colored pencils. And then you go to a copy store and make a copy of the art piece. I have a piece I bought from an artist years ago and I still love it. I am using my photos, and magazine photos and my art. So my artist date is awesome.
I am designing a great dinner for my son and husband also. We are co creators and I am co creating.
A challenge for you. Make an Art Date with a friend and if the friend can't make it do it yourself. It could be a movie, going to a gallery, pulling out pieces from a magazine, what do you want to do? What is your souls desire? I am still going to look for that?
Thursday, January 14, 2010
01-14-10
I love feeling inspired. I love and crave that creative flow that happens, sometimes. Why isn't it ever enough. My guitar is sitting there within arms reach and I don't touch it. I have writing programs in my computer I have ideas for scripts a lot. Don't do that either. I am in the grips of a little voice, or a BIG voice that is choking my creativity. This blog was to keep a safe place to create on my mind. And it is doing just that. It is on my mind that I don't create much. I don't have the motivation. What is to motivate me?
I think many creative people don't have that part of them that sets the goals, or deadlines unless they are forced to. I am that way. I love deadlines, because I will get it done because I don't want to look like a loser.
That is another thing, looking good. I want everyone to think I am on this mission of creating everyday and boy, oh, boy aren't I the cool one. WRONG!! I have to fight with the voices in my head everyday. Then I feel sorry for myself. Why was I born with this monkey on my back.
Wow! I sound like I need to go to a mental institution. I do have a brain dis-ease that is for sure.
What I am going to do to challenge myself today is write 10 things that I have done in the past year. Things that are creative and things that I generated. Yes, I am a generator. You are a generator. I will generated positive energy to share with the world today. I will generated an outlook that is strong and powerful. I will stand in the knowing I am a child of nature and it is my birth right to feel good, to create, to expand and to love myself, even with these human traits that I can not accept. I accept them. Take the Challenge, write 10 things you generated on your own last year. It could be a birthday party, a great meal, a new garden, go for it!!!
I think many creative people don't have that part of them that sets the goals, or deadlines unless they are forced to. I am that way. I love deadlines, because I will get it done because I don't want to look like a loser.
That is another thing, looking good. I want everyone to think I am on this mission of creating everyday and boy, oh, boy aren't I the cool one. WRONG!! I have to fight with the voices in my head everyday. Then I feel sorry for myself. Why was I born with this monkey on my back.
Wow! I sound like I need to go to a mental institution. I do have a brain dis-ease that is for sure.
What I am going to do to challenge myself today is write 10 things that I have done in the past year. Things that are creative and things that I generated. Yes, I am a generator. You are a generator. I will generated positive energy to share with the world today. I will generated an outlook that is strong and powerful. I will stand in the knowing I am a child of nature and it is my birth right to feel good, to create, to expand and to love myself, even with these human traits that I can not accept. I accept them. Take the Challenge, write 10 things you generated on your own last year. It could be a birthday party, a great meal, a new garden, go for it!!!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
01-13-10
Radical Acceptance. Yes I heard a tape on this subject and I am needing to use it in my own life. Is it the constant rain? The darkness of winter in the Northwest? Is it my pattern? All of the above. Having a friend come over to write. She has an idea for a script and I am going along with it. I was inspired the first meeting but haven't really been to inspired since. Is that me? I, me, me me. I am self absorbed. Selfish.
My challenge today is to reach out to someone, anyone and put them before myself. I will have radical acceptance for me and for everyone else I see today.
Take that challenge and I will give this person 110% of myself today.
My challenge today is to reach out to someone, anyone and put them before myself. I will have radical acceptance for me and for everyone else I see today.
Take that challenge and I will give this person 110% of myself today.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
01-12-10
My challenge today is to focus on anything. What is up with that? I meditated, did my morning pages, worked out, drank my morning shake and still in a funk. The winter rain made way to sunshine and still in a funk. What is a funk? There feels like some emotion that I am not dealing with. It is like I don't want to sit down and make friends with this nagging feeling. So in the midst of not wanting to deal with it I am not in the moment. I am in an uncomfortable dance of the hidden feeling and me wanting to keep it put away. Who wants to feel anyway? Who wants to be angry? Who wants to cry?
I had a great day yesterday and many things manifested for me. I got a part in a movie I auditioned for. A producer called me and said we were doing another movie in the summer. My friend wants me to brainstorm with her on a new website. All good things right? Then today slam, I don't feel good about much of anything. I am not laughing, can't focus, feel tired and not motivated.
A challenge, that is what I need. I challenge you and myself to pick up one mess that has been growing for a few days. Maybe your mail is piling up. Maybe your dirty clothes need to be put in the laundry room or better yet in the washing machine. I will clean up my bathroom. Shoes, workout clothes etc. are everywhere. I will do this and consciously explore what I am feeling, or the feeling I am hiding. Maybe it is in the mess I haven't picked up for a few days.
TRY It!
I had a great day yesterday and many things manifested for me. I got a part in a movie I auditioned for. A producer called me and said we were doing another movie in the summer. My friend wants me to brainstorm with her on a new website. All good things right? Then today slam, I don't feel good about much of anything. I am not laughing, can't focus, feel tired and not motivated.
A challenge, that is what I need. I challenge you and myself to pick up one mess that has been growing for a few days. Maybe your mail is piling up. Maybe your dirty clothes need to be put in the laundry room or better yet in the washing machine. I will clean up my bathroom. Shoes, workout clothes etc. are everywhere. I will do this and consciously explore what I am feeling, or the feeling I am hiding. Maybe it is in the mess I haven't picked up for a few days.
TRY It!
Monday, January 11, 2010
01-11-10
The reason I started writing this was to change my life and focus on creating from now on. Not from the past. In saying this I would like to explain. Of course my experiences, all of my past will come out in creating. This is what brings our uniqueness. The part I didn't want to bring was the victim, the past failures as being the end of that. I am seeing in a new way. It is the vibration from this point on and not the vibration of the past story.
The universe is ready to give you what you are seeking. It is seeking you. IT wants to be molded into art, love, beauty, the way we do this is with creating. We are co-creating with the play dough of the stars. Even when we wake up and decide what to wear we are creating our art of who we are in clothes. Then what we eat, how we move, what are plans are for the rest of the day.
My challenge for you today is actually for this evening or tomorrow morning. Think about what you are going to do and see what you want to wear for that. Why do you want to wear that? Is that the best choice or are you just doing what you do every day? You could pick out your clothes tonight, are they clean?
TAKE A LOOK AT THAT, I WILL!!!
The universe is ready to give you what you are seeking. It is seeking you. IT wants to be molded into art, love, beauty, the way we do this is with creating. We are co-creating with the play dough of the stars. Even when we wake up and decide what to wear we are creating our art of who we are in clothes. Then what we eat, how we move, what are plans are for the rest of the day.
My challenge for you today is actually for this evening or tomorrow morning. Think about what you are going to do and see what you want to wear for that. Why do you want to wear that? Is that the best choice or are you just doing what you do every day? You could pick out your clothes tonight, are they clean?
TAKE A LOOK AT THAT, I WILL!!!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
01-10-10
Ok I posted something before I was done. So this is my post for today. I was wanting to write about process. I will probably write about this more than one day as I find it a huge challenge and I want to work on it this year. Process, how to get from A to Z. I have an idea that many creative people have this issue. Creating and living in that side of the brain comes easy for some people. But having people see your works, have a show, or sell something, get the word out is like a foreign language.
I get totally blank, I get totally confused. How do people do it? And they have to keep it up over and over and over to get results. With that being said I am thinking that doing research may be a great way to start a process. My challenge to you (and to me) is to do research on a few subjects this week. Actually look online, in local papers, in magazines, whatever I can get my hands on and look at art, music, writing, classes, anything that has to do with creating. Venues you can sell at, venues you can go too, Art walks, gallery's. ETC.
Good Work, and Hopefully we can learn more about process. At least it is a start.
I get totally blank, I get totally confused. How do people do it? And they have to keep it up over and over and over to get results. With that being said I am thinking that doing research may be a great way to start a process. My challenge to you (and to me) is to do research on a few subjects this week. Actually look online, in local papers, in magazines, whatever I can get my hands on and look at art, music, writing, classes, anything that has to do with creating. Venues you can sell at, venues you can go too, Art walks, gallery's. ETC.
Good Work, and Hopefully we can learn more about process. At least it is a start.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
01-09-10
Balance. What does that mean to you? I actually heard a different view on it today and it made sense to me. I would say balance is an even amount of things, that would be balanced, equal proportions may be a better way to say how I thought of balance. Or standing on one foot and keeping my balance. In life it would be equal work and play time etc. But what I read today said balance is more like a recipe, where you don't always have equal proportions you still have a balance that makes the recipe perfect. The perfect balance may have a little more rest, a little less food, add a splash of exercise.
It could be 5 days of work, 1/2 hr of meditation a day, Saturday is shopping day, and Sunday you see family. And you feel balanced. They are not of equal proportions but you have some of everything that you need.
My challenge to you today is find 3 things you believe to be in balance in your life. I want you to remember when you look outside what things are balanced in nature? When I look outside it must be the perfect balance or my birds wouldn't be so happy, and our squirrels would move to another bunch of trees.
It could be 5 days of work, 1/2 hr of meditation a day, Saturday is shopping day, and Sunday you see family. And you feel balanced. They are not of equal proportions but you have some of everything that you need.
My challenge to you today is find 3 things you believe to be in balance in your life. I want you to remember when you look outside what things are balanced in nature? When I look outside it must be the perfect balance or my birds wouldn't be so happy, and our squirrels would move to another bunch of trees.
Friday, January 8, 2010
01-08-10
Have you had one of those nights you were really really tired and as soon as your head hit the pillow you were wide awake. Well, I had one of those nights. I try and create something, listen to CD's, try and listen but it seems like the mind is on crazy power, won't shut off and won't shut up. Then you start worrying knowing you have things you have to do tomorrow and it would be nice to be rested for them.
What happened was I finally got to this place where I realized I was precious Life Force, not this crazy mind that was getting quite irritating if I must say so myself. It would like me to believe it tells the truth and that is who I am.
Well being a Precious Life Force, I was not my name, my looks, my crazy talk. I was more like a tree, a mountain, a running stream, my deers, or a cute little kitten. This brings tears to my eyes that I can be so mean to me, that I can think someones crazy thoughts can effect how I feel. This is my pattern to stay safe as I have spoken of in earlier blogs. Well I would rather feel safe knowing I am a Precious Life Force and like the trees and deers, I am always taken care of, I always have what I need, it is here as the little squirrels are taken care of we just try and find it somewhere else, outside of us. I think it may be inside of us and running through us, this is where our true creativity and gifts come from.
My Challenge for you today is to see if you can get in touch with your Precious Life Force. BET YOU CAN!!!!!
What happened was I finally got to this place where I realized I was precious Life Force, not this crazy mind that was getting quite irritating if I must say so myself. It would like me to believe it tells the truth and that is who I am.
Well being a Precious Life Force, I was not my name, my looks, my crazy talk. I was more like a tree, a mountain, a running stream, my deers, or a cute little kitten. This brings tears to my eyes that I can be so mean to me, that I can think someones crazy thoughts can effect how I feel. This is my pattern to stay safe as I have spoken of in earlier blogs. Well I would rather feel safe knowing I am a Precious Life Force and like the trees and deers, I am always taken care of, I always have what I need, it is here as the little squirrels are taken care of we just try and find it somewhere else, outside of us. I think it may be inside of us and running through us, this is where our true creativity and gifts come from.
My Challenge for you today is to see if you can get in touch with your Precious Life Force. BET YOU CAN!!!!!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
01-07-20
Welcome creators of the world. I will keep this short today but will cover a couple ideas real quick. Excuses. Yes I caught myself saying a couple things that I tell myself all the time and then I realized they are something I just made up in my head and I use them as Excuses. So I am challenging you to take a look at your inner talk and see if you make up excuses for not doing what you wanted or not creating something you have been given, some sort of cosmic idea.
I am marking mine as Xcuses, meaning I am Xing them out of my life. If I catch myself doing it I imagine putting in a big bucket to recycle into something constructive. So a bucket of X's can be affirming energy
The other Challenge for today is to remember someone in your life that supported your creativity in some way. Maybe just by listening, by affirming a great idea, or asking you to play your song for someone besides yourself.
Then write them a note, you can send it or email it, or just tell the air around you what a great support that person was and how it really did make a difference for the better. THANK YOU!!!!
I am marking mine as Xcuses, meaning I am Xing them out of my life. If I catch myself doing it I imagine putting in a big bucket to recycle into something constructive. So a bucket of X's can be affirming energy
The other Challenge for today is to remember someone in your life that supported your creativity in some way. Maybe just by listening, by affirming a great idea, or asking you to play your song for someone besides yourself.
Then write them a note, you can send it or email it, or just tell the air around you what a great support that person was and how it really did make a difference for the better. THANK YOU!!!!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
01-06-10
O.K. so today hasn't been the explosive goodness I have seemed to be having in the new year. I woke up a little on edge, or you could call it angry.
Remember hormones, weather, food, and rest can influence your moods.
Hormones had a big influence on today!! I put one drop of testosterone (my natural ones) on my body last night. More as a test than anything, because previously I have had bad dreams, sleepless nights, aggression and not the benefits I was told would happen. The benefits were more energy, stronger sex drive, leaner muscles, who wouldn't want that right?
Well I woke up in a bad mood, angry, frustrated, pretty much ready to punch someone out.
Is this how men feel all the time? WOW!!!
So with the daily activities I was given today and my hormones & aggressiveness attitude I was a little reluctant to have a lunch date with a new artist friend. We are actually creative partners now through a small, quick get to know each other in a singing situation, (neither of us are actually singers), anyway we had so much in common it was scarey. And it gets even weirder today.
Birth: She living a parallel life the same as mine. While we shared more of our personal history it was past normal coincidence. Her siblings were 10 & 11 years older than her, mine were 11 & 13 years older than I so we were raised somewhat like only children from age 4 or 5. Her middle brother went into the Army at 17 and was shipped to Germany and so was mine. O.K. That was weird enough so I thought her brother could never do the strange thing my brother did in the Army. My brother was a mechanic in Germany on Tanks. Well, her brother was too. That is when goosebumps, tears, and we both hit the table at the same time with our hands. It was like TOO MUCH!! How weird is that?
These kind of happenings really make you take a look at "meant to be meetings, fate, universal energy, synchronicity, coincidence or a presence larger than us knowing more that we do. You can call it what you may.
WOW! I guess I had quite an amazing day after all!!!
My Challenge to you is to really take a look at your life and see how many things happen in a realm of WOW, I really can't believe that happened like that, or we just met on the street, or she called right when I was thinking of her. Take a look at that. That is part of creating.....have a great dreamland time because that is a great time to create. Take a notebook to bed with you or a tape recorder, some of our best ideas come to us in dreams. Twilight was written from a dream and the author had never ever thought of Vampires before the dream, she hid it from her husband for months out of fear he would think his wife, the mother of their children was writing about something like that. Let the creation be given to you to create.....DO IT!!
Remember hormones, weather, food, and rest can influence your moods.
Hormones had a big influence on today!! I put one drop of testosterone (my natural ones) on my body last night. More as a test than anything, because previously I have had bad dreams, sleepless nights, aggression and not the benefits I was told would happen. The benefits were more energy, stronger sex drive, leaner muscles, who wouldn't want that right?
Well I woke up in a bad mood, angry, frustrated, pretty much ready to punch someone out.
Is this how men feel all the time? WOW!!!
So with the daily activities I was given today and my hormones & aggressiveness attitude I was a little reluctant to have a lunch date with a new artist friend. We are actually creative partners now through a small, quick get to know each other in a singing situation, (neither of us are actually singers), anyway we had so much in common it was scarey. And it gets even weirder today.
Birth: She living a parallel life the same as mine. While we shared more of our personal history it was past normal coincidence. Her siblings were 10 & 11 years older than her, mine were 11 & 13 years older than I so we were raised somewhat like only children from age 4 or 5. Her middle brother went into the Army at 17 and was shipped to Germany and so was mine. O.K. That was weird enough so I thought her brother could never do the strange thing my brother did in the Army. My brother was a mechanic in Germany on Tanks. Well, her brother was too. That is when goosebumps, tears, and we both hit the table at the same time with our hands. It was like TOO MUCH!! How weird is that?
These kind of happenings really make you take a look at "meant to be meetings, fate, universal energy, synchronicity, coincidence or a presence larger than us knowing more that we do. You can call it what you may.
WOW! I guess I had quite an amazing day after all!!!
My Challenge to you is to really take a look at your life and see how many things happen in a realm of WOW, I really can't believe that happened like that, or we just met on the street, or she called right when I was thinking of her. Take a look at that. That is part of creating.....have a great dreamland time because that is a great time to create. Take a notebook to bed with you or a tape recorder, some of our best ideas come to us in dreams. Twilight was written from a dream and the author had never ever thought of Vampires before the dream, she hid it from her husband for months out of fear he would think his wife, the mother of their children was writing about something like that. Let the creation be given to you to create.....DO IT!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
01-05-10
I was excited yesterday and I had another breakthrough this morning. That little scared child within me that has been hiding for way to many years made herself seen. This child remembers having her first lucid thought at 3 years old where she felt smart, powerful and making complete sense. She still had that connection to the essence of life and felt true and a real sense of being as she communicated how she felt in a certain situation. Well she was knocked down for standing up in what she felt true, without any explanation except, "When I tell you to do something you do it."
Before that night I felt safe, loved, enough, good and actually loved this planet. I go blank on the actual action of a spanking, or beating or whatever it was, I just remember sitting in the dark stairweld and making the decision that, "I know how to stay safe in this house, I simply do everything that they say". At that moment where I couldn't trust my mom to keep me safe and my father who I adored hit me, humiliated me in front of the nieighbors must not love me anymore and I am bad, no good and it is not safe to be me. From that day on I hid away, only doing what they said. My energy level fell, I wasn't the happy go lucky child anymore. This has haunted me all my life. I have continued making myself a victim from one small decision I made as a child. CAN YOU RELATE TO THAT? Creativity is difficult from the perception that you can't trust who you love, it isn't safe to be you, you are bad or not good enough.
I have come to find that these kinds of thoughts are a part of being human. You have all heard it before, we are our own worst enemies. Well sometimes we are.
She has feared for her life for so long and hid so deep within me, she shakes and cry's and has a hard time trusting me. I let her hide for all these years. We made new memories of that fateful day where I gave up that precious part of me. We made up a whole new scene and felt the feelings of being a smart, powerful girl standing in what she thought was right. And her mom instead of having her beaten explained why it would be a good idea to pick up what the neighbor boy had spilled. Little me was more than happy to help someone, but to do something just because they said so made no sense to a 3 year old. Of course I know I was not doing what my parents said and I know I defied their wishes and I also know the punishment was way harsher that what I had or hadn't done. My mother said so until her passing. I never got another spanking again. All my dad ever said even until I was 18 was remember the Orange Peels (that is what the neighbor boy spilled and I was asked to pick them up) My 3 year old logic was why do I have to pick them up when Gary spilt them. " Because I said so", was the answer.
I love my inner child, I la la la love her, I will keep her safe and i WILL let her dress the way she wants to from time to time.
That is my challenge to you, Think back to when you were 2-4 and see if you made any decisions that may not be working for you anymore. Then write them and rewrite them so that you can have a good feeling and change your life today. Because we are living today. This is to not disregard these things that aren't so pleasant, but they do not serve you today. The other Challenge is to figure out what that little person would wear if they could dress anyway they want. I have jeans on, cowboy boots a dress over the jeans and a jacket. LET'S PLAY!!
Before that night I felt safe, loved, enough, good and actually loved this planet. I go blank on the actual action of a spanking, or beating or whatever it was, I just remember sitting in the dark stairweld and making the decision that, "I know how to stay safe in this house, I simply do everything that they say". At that moment where I couldn't trust my mom to keep me safe and my father who I adored hit me, humiliated me in front of the nieighbors must not love me anymore and I am bad, no good and it is not safe to be me. From that day on I hid away, only doing what they said. My energy level fell, I wasn't the happy go lucky child anymore. This has haunted me all my life. I have continued making myself a victim from one small decision I made as a child. CAN YOU RELATE TO THAT? Creativity is difficult from the perception that you can't trust who you love, it isn't safe to be you, you are bad or not good enough.
I have come to find that these kinds of thoughts are a part of being human. You have all heard it before, we are our own worst enemies. Well sometimes we are.
She has feared for her life for so long and hid so deep within me, she shakes and cry's and has a hard time trusting me. I let her hide for all these years. We made new memories of that fateful day where I gave up that precious part of me. We made up a whole new scene and felt the feelings of being a smart, powerful girl standing in what she thought was right. And her mom instead of having her beaten explained why it would be a good idea to pick up what the neighbor boy had spilled. Little me was more than happy to help someone, but to do something just because they said so made no sense to a 3 year old. Of course I know I was not doing what my parents said and I know I defied their wishes and I also know the punishment was way harsher that what I had or hadn't done. My mother said so until her passing. I never got another spanking again. All my dad ever said even until I was 18 was remember the Orange Peels (that is what the neighbor boy spilled and I was asked to pick them up) My 3 year old logic was why do I have to pick them up when Gary spilt them. " Because I said so", was the answer.
I love my inner child, I la la la love her, I will keep her safe and i WILL let her dress the way she wants to from time to time.
That is my challenge to you, Think back to when you were 2-4 and see if you made any decisions that may not be working for you anymore. Then write them and rewrite them so that you can have a good feeling and change your life today. Because we are living today. This is to not disregard these things that aren't so pleasant, but they do not serve you today. The other Challenge is to figure out what that little person would wear if they could dress anyway they want. I have jeans on, cowboy boots a dress over the jeans and a jacket. LET'S PLAY!!
Monday, January 4, 2010
01-04-10
I am so excited!! Because yesterday after I wrote my blog I did the exercise of walking around and actually seeing what was there. And I saw lots of tiny things that were actually making my space feel cluttered, messed up, things out of place.
And that little bit of mess was enough to make me feel like I had so much to do I wouldn't have time to write a song or finish my painting.
Well I moved a few things, put some dishes in the dishwasher, put socks where they needed to go and a few simple things like that and all of a sudden I was actually working on my projects.
I have 2 multi media projects and I jumped right into them with fresh ideas and worked until 1:30am. And I ran back and forth clapping with happiness with the results. Time flew by, I never stay up that late. I was in my bliss. Then I had to take a night light to bed cuz I kept coming up with more ideas. And believe me I want to write it down when it comes to me, these are your gifts you are given. Michael Jackson even quoted about the gifts he was given he had to use in a timely matter because Prince would use them if he didn't jump on the creative gifts, as he believed they came to him, they were out in the universal energy. Have you ever thought of an idea for something and then in a short time you see the idea and someone else did it. I have that over and over and over.......Stop and create NOW!!!
This actually kept Michael awake at night. As it can our creative selves. So today is about doing what I asked yesterday and see what it can do for you. Do it NOW!!! The gifts are there for you. Listen, look around you, let you trust your process. Good creating.
And that little bit of mess was enough to make me feel like I had so much to do I wouldn't have time to write a song or finish my painting.
Well I moved a few things, put some dishes in the dishwasher, put socks where they needed to go and a few simple things like that and all of a sudden I was actually working on my projects.
I have 2 multi media projects and I jumped right into them with fresh ideas and worked until 1:30am. And I ran back and forth clapping with happiness with the results. Time flew by, I never stay up that late. I was in my bliss. Then I had to take a night light to bed cuz I kept coming up with more ideas. And believe me I want to write it down when it comes to me, these are your gifts you are given. Michael Jackson even quoted about the gifts he was given he had to use in a timely matter because Prince would use them if he didn't jump on the creative gifts, as he believed they came to him, they were out in the universal energy. Have you ever thought of an idea for something and then in a short time you see the idea and someone else did it. I have that over and over and over.......Stop and create NOW!!!
This actually kept Michael awake at night. As it can our creative selves. So today is about doing what I asked yesterday and see what it can do for you. Do it NOW!!! The gifts are there for you. Listen, look around you, let you trust your process. Good creating.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
01-03-10
Creating is natural, it is how plants grow, how we invent anything, how we decide what to wear in the morning, what to eat all day. Being so natural how do we get so lost or so caught up in not seeing what is around us? The house, the yard, the trees, the lake, the animals in the area, the interesting people and colors that are eyes don't even see. Like yesterdays blog we get caught up in the chatter in our head.
It is like not being able to solve a problem or find something one day, and then as soon as you wake up you know the answer to the problem or you remember right where you put something and why you put it there. Is it because you aren't up with the chatter that getting up and getting ready for the day fills you with.
This is almost like the not seeing things in the moment.
So how could you have room to create, whether it be writing, painting, dancing or learning a script.
I have a challenge for you. Take 15 minutes during the day and make sure there is no TV, no phones, or even radio. What do you hear? see? feel? Does it make you uncomfortable to not have things going on. Walk around your house and look what you have filled your house with. If you still have time walk outside and look at everything like you have never seen it before.
Just take notice if your place is cluttered more that you thought? Do you have a sacred place to create? Tell me how this goes? I'm going to do it.
It is like not being able to solve a problem or find something one day, and then as soon as you wake up you know the answer to the problem or you remember right where you put something and why you put it there. Is it because you aren't up with the chatter that getting up and getting ready for the day fills you with.
This is almost like the not seeing things in the moment.
So how could you have room to create, whether it be writing, painting, dancing or learning a script.
I have a challenge for you. Take 15 minutes during the day and make sure there is no TV, no phones, or even radio. What do you hear? see? feel? Does it make you uncomfortable to not have things going on. Walk around your house and look what you have filled your house with. If you still have time walk outside and look at everything like you have never seen it before.
Just take notice if your place is cluttered more that you thought? Do you have a sacred place to create? Tell me how this goes? I'm going to do it.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
01-02-10
Creating a safe place to create has to start in our minds. If we are constantly listening to the talking head, we have no room to create. The past, what they just said, what did they mean when they said that. Oh, I did it again, why do I always make a mess of that. I am so tired of that happening again. They don't like me. I am scared of meeting those people. The mind can go on and on, over and over the same things.
Listening to this jabber is the first step, because then you know it is actually going on. If you can't hear it it is probably controlling you and you are out of touch with what is actually happening right now. Like I can hear water dripping, I can hear my fingers typing and my stomach just growled and I feel like I am in this moment.
Creating is in the moment. You may be feeling angry and you create out of that anger, but you are in the moment with anger. You have created a space that you can create out of instead of not listening to this feeling.
Making a space in your mind, learning how to stop the chatter, accept what comes up and allow it to gently go away can bring you to a place where you feel inspired. Music, meditation, exercise are a few ways of getting out of the jabber and into your body at this moment.
Have a great creative day, or a creative moment and know it is safe to be you and to create from you.
Listening to this jabber is the first step, because then you know it is actually going on. If you can't hear it it is probably controlling you and you are out of touch with what is actually happening right now. Like I can hear water dripping, I can hear my fingers typing and my stomach just growled and I feel like I am in this moment.
Creating is in the moment. You may be feeling angry and you create out of that anger, but you are in the moment with anger. You have created a space that you can create out of instead of not listening to this feeling.
Making a space in your mind, learning how to stop the chatter, accept what comes up and allow it to gently go away can bring you to a place where you feel inspired. Music, meditation, exercise are a few ways of getting out of the jabber and into your body at this moment.
Have a great creative day, or a creative moment and know it is safe to be you and to create from you.
Friday, January 1, 2010
01-01-10
I am wanting to use creativity to create my life this year. The universe is made of energy and I have been creating things from the past by using the energy in the same way, thus getting the same things. This year I want to look, and listen and watch how changing my thought waves can change things around me. I have set myself up to be a victim for years. I recently saw that I was doing to myself in my head. Of course this is one of my patterns that the universe is so kindly to keep giving me that experience. Not to say I really found out how selfish I am. That is not a way I want to live my life.
Doing this daily blog is something that I hope can help clear some of these issues up with. And I can laugh more, have more fun and be a co creator in my life.
As a child it was not ok to speak your mind so that makes it kind of hard to create when you get knocked down for it. It wasn't safe. That's why this is called "a safe place to create" . I believe in my heart we are here to do that. And those are the gifts we were given to share. You can't be to scared, or too selfish if you want to share.
Doing this daily blog is something that I hope can help clear some of these issues up with. And I can laugh more, have more fun and be a co creator in my life.
As a child it was not ok to speak your mind so that makes it kind of hard to create when you get knocked down for it. It wasn't safe. That's why this is called "a safe place to create" . I believe in my heart we are here to do that. And those are the gifts we were given to share. You can't be to scared, or too selfish if you want to share.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)