03-31-10

"Today I enter into the limitless variations of self-expression which the Divine Spirit projects into my expression." Ernest Holmes again.
My challenge for you today is to say, Today is my day. I let it live itself through me. Ernest Holmes again. But I am going to live this today. Have a great one. Allow what comes to you and through you today guide you into a full day of living and loving. Being grateful for this body that houses life. That is life itself. It is a universe within itself, with rivers, mountains, valleys, movement, we could look at our energy as weather. Weather is energy. We are the world, the cosmos, the universe and beyond. Go out and have a good time today.

03-30-10

OH my gosh. I have these Heart cards that I mix up and pick out 4 cards and try and focus on that. I was saying to myself I wonder if I will get the creativity card be cause I want to do something very creative. And as I was handling the cards and I heard my mind say what are you hungry for and the LOVE card fell out. So I decided to keep that one. Then I kept choosing the next 3 and turned them over and the next card was the creativity card. I knew it. I needed it and wanted it and that is what the universe gave me. Earlier I went on an artist date where I soaked up pretty things that is when I got the craving to create. Then when I stopped at the mailbox to get the mail. I said I get checks in the mail and I wondered who would send me a check and a voice in my head said SAG, Screen Actors Guild. Then I said big checks in the mail, but I opened the box and sure enough there was an unexpected SAG envelope. I could only want it to be a large amount. I thought wow that was strange but when I got the Creativity card then I thought maybe there is something to this. I am listening and being in the flow with the universe. The check was for 64 cents. So it was not my largest check and not my smallest. I actually got a 1cent check once. I really didn't want to cash it. Now on to bigger and better things...YEAH!! 'The other words I got was clarity and forgiveness. Those are good words for me right now also.
My challenge for everyone today is to see when things happen? Do you just let it go and not take it into consideration that it is in the flow of the universe? Synchronicity and all that good stuff.

03-29-10

My blog today reflects things that I have heard from the Oprah TV show and I just read it in her magazine. What are you Hungry for? When we plop food into our mouth, go shopping, do compulsive addictive habits you are trying to fill up. Then I saw the Hoarding show on TLC last night. Wow!! then I looked around my house and saw all the little piles of hoarding. Messy house messy mind. So today I got up and just naturally started to pickup some of the little piles. I still have some of course, but I feel better about going into the bathroom. I hung up lots of clothes and actually tried on some clothes that I forgot about. So was creating some new ideas for this spring.
Creativity is about the way you dress, the things you choose to show the world about you.
My challenge to you is to really take a look around you and see what you see. I know we have talked about this before but it is time to do it again. It can be only one little pile. The pile of mail, the magazines piling up. I am talking to myself right here. I am still working on my Heart cards. I actually found some that i had designed a long time ago for acting class. So this has been a project that has been growing for a very long time.......Look Around!!!

03-28-10

Let us talk about vibration. Today has been a lot about vibration. I sang in the choir at a spiritual center, then the choir went to a nonviolent conference and sang again. That is all about vibrations, then the string instruments and even the piano. All vibration. We are vibration and our thoughts are vibration as is the chairs, the table and everything is vibrating. WOW!! That is kind of hard to have a concept about. So my creations are vibration. I can understand that with music, but with a piece of art. I understand timing in writing, but still with the canvas, how does that work? I think I want to work with that. Music can help you make art. Dance can get your juices going. I am going to explore this theory and maybe do some experiments.
My challenge for you today is for you to take a look at vibrations. What do you think about vibrations? Remember the saying about the vibe of a person. Well, that may be the exact truth.
I am going to take a look at that. How about you?

03-27-10

OK, today is the Celebration of Life I thought was last week. I believe I am still going to wear the same clothes I picked out for last week. Maybe I am a little more prepared for this today. I just don't seem to be as afraid of going. Last week I was afraid of seeing everyone, I was afraid of crying too much. I don't care what people I see, I don't care what they may think of me. For gosh sakes it isn't about me now is it. This is about Hank and his family. Selfish comes into place again. I wonder if everyone thinks of themselves first. Their insecurities, fears and doubts. I bet they do because we are just that kind of animal.
I actually went for a short walk this morning. I want to exercise, but I must not that much because I don't do it. That can be a way to celebrate life is to exercise. I used to do it for years and years and years. Now I just am tired. Just tired of pushing myself that hard. I tried to lift a few weights last night, did a little but not like I have even in the recent past. I am in some kind of holding pattern. I don't think this is the best place to be but I am not going to get down on myself for it.
My challenge to you is to take a look and see if in some situations when it truly isn't about you, you may only be worrying about how you look or what will others think. That is tiresome also.
I think I will go take a nap before I get dressed.

03-26-10

Going Deeper to Deeper. I have been trying to go deeper into my gut to ground myself here in this body of mine. In the morning it seems there. In the early afternoon I can find it, but later on in the day like early afternoon I get a weird feeling in my gut. Almost like butterflies, I can't focus as well and can't really identify a feeling. It concerns me a little. It doesn't make for a very creative mood. I wonder if we have these ebb and flows of energy and if it has to do with the moon, or how the stars are aligned. Or is it what we eat and drink. The amount of sleep and exercise we get. There are so many things to take into consideration isn't there. Emotional work, classes we take, people we are around. Many Many things.
My challenge to you today is to take a look at times you may feel unfocused, confused, not energized to create, and or all of those. Could you find a reason? Are there some things that effect you more than others in your moods or your creativity? Sometimes I wonder if going deeper to deeper is where I want to go. In the long run it works but the in between times are not so much fun. I am so grateful for this moment and the next and the next. For now and now again. I am also ready to just lay down if that is what it takes to pull myself back to focus.
Have a good one.

03-25-10

I see you. Good Morning. I looked in the mirror and said I see you. What did I see? My eyes first of all. Of course I have one of those mirrors that makes everything bigger so I can put on my makeup. But my mind was still slashing me with an ongoing conversation. Then I stopped it and affirmed that I am love, I am creation itself and I sort of relaxed into the moment. Which is a little rushed. As I have to get up early, do my meditation, hair makeup, then I am blogging in between roasting vegetables to take to work. I am trying to feed my body healthy and at the same time loose a little bit of my mid section.
My challenge to you is for you to stare into the mirror sometime today and see what you see. Louise Hay was known for the mirror exercise. Try it today. Look into those eyes of yours and what do you see?
Does your mind say something else than what you are seeing? Just listen and then start telling yourself how wonderful you are. What a miracle you are. And I will see you tomorrow.

03-24-10

Hello wild woman of the world. Maybe a man or two also. It is a beautiful day today and I have to get ready for work. A challenge for you today is to make up a challenge for yourself today. Mine is going to be to love myself as much as possible. I am going to tell myself how great I feel. That I am poised and confident. Energized with the energy all around me. What is your challenge today? You can put it in the comment section. I would love to hear it. See now you have to be creative.

03-23-10

OK. What a great day, and what a great AHA Moment for me. Yes, it is all about me. HA!
I was doing my meditation and it came to me, deep deep inside of me. First of all I am going to tell you a little story. When we first bought our home we were going to redo the kitchen, so I picked out some oak cabinets, and then in my morning meditation (20 years of meditating now) I heard my a little voice say, Well if it was my kitchen I would have white cabinets. And then I realized it is my kitchen. So, I got great white cabinets from Europe that were child proof. I still love them. So back today I was having my usual sadness, anxiety, not feeling good about myself. ( That is why I meditate too). And I heard that little voice say, If it was my life I would take care of me. And then I realized, It is my life. I wrote down, If this is your life, Own it. Why wouldn't I know or think this was my life. Because somewhere I got separated from myself. I got it knocked out of me and it wasn't OK to be me anymore. So I did a seperation, which brings great sadness to a soul. Great destructive thoughts, that I recreated over and over out of fear. That is why I needed to create a safe place to create. Cuz I have to create my life for me now.
My challenge for you today is to ask yourself, Do I believe this is my life and am I owning it? Are you hiding from people, are you hiding from yourself? This is your life, do you own it? What can you do today to own it even more. Take your vitamins, eat more vegetables, give yourself a big hug. I did all of those things today. I have to take care of this precious life that has been given me. Like my cabinets, I will still love me for years to come. Now I feel like doing art work, how about you?

03-22-10

I am trying something new. I am standing up and I have my laptop up high. I am so tired of sitting down and my back hurting. I like this. Today is a cleanse day. Meaning I drink a special drink all day and lots of water. It helps detox your body. My body needs detoxing. I was filling it up with stuff that wasn't good for me. Negative thoughts about people. I wonder why that happens sometimes. If you read yesterdays blog I was in a weird mood too. Then I went to work and this young girl at worked bugged me. She was talking about how she was in a pageant and she got first runner up. Then I just remembered I did the same thing when I was young. I was first runner up in Miss Washington World. And I got Miss Congeniality for Miss Marysville. Did I think I was pretty? I don't remember thinking I was attractive. I had low self esteem. This girl bugs me cuz she is so out going. I am out going. She bugs me cuz she just says whatever she wants. I don't do that. I filter what I say most of the time. This was a good exercise for me.
I challenge you to take a look at a person that may get on your nerves. Are you just like them? I heard once if something really bugs you you probably do that too. I want to love this girl. I want to love all creation. We are all one. My challenge now is to move on, let go and enjoy this lovely spring day. No time for not feeling well, or feeling ill about someone. Wasted energy.
This computer up in the air seems to work pretty good. Maybe I will keep it like this for a while. Have a creative day.

03-21-10

Hello my dear friends. I am wanting to go back to bed. Again. I got up and went to church, then ate too much then went to bed. Showered and ate some more. What is with this eating thing. I stuffed it in like I was starving. Was I empty. What was I needing. Nourishment. I have to go to work late tonight and do physical work. Dressing manikins and moving heavy clothing. Now am I complaining or whining? I want to feel good and excited about life. I want to be motivated and have the prosperity hormone. I am going to listen to a talk on this subject. That woman have been trained to not nurture that hormone. And there is a way to awaken it again. I am ready. I know that I used to think Power was angry men. There is a gentle Big Power available to us at all times. So there may be a Big Prosperity Hormone available. Just talking about such great things has taken my whining attitude away and I have more energy.
A challenge I give you today is to see if you can talk yourself out of a mood. What if you were tired, and you started clapping and jumping up and down excited to be alive, would that make your energy move more. What about just reading something that is inspirational. Yes, affirmative talking can change your thinking. I believe there has to be release of old patterns so that you aren't trying to cover up something. You want to totally turn it around. Acknowledgment of old patterns, then connecting to the Big Picture, the Big Life and affirming your place in this Life can make you feel much better. Just like me.....Have a great day. I am affirming that for you and your creativity.

03-20-10

Wow, doing this blog keeps me knowing the date. HA! I got up and got ready to go to a memorial today. A Celebration of Life. But when I got into writing this blog I realized the Celebration is on the 27th. A week away. Well, at least I know what I am going to wear. And now I have time to go for a walk, turn on the TV, take a nap before I go to work.
Let us talk about TV. Last night I finally turned off the TV and guess what? It was quiet and I worked on one of my songs and then I made 10 more original cards. Now I have 40 cards with original artwork.
My challenge for you today is to take a look at your distractions. How much could you get done in any area if you turned off the TV, or didn't watch that movie, or the book you just can't put down. Well, I love watching HGTV and I will do that when I can but I want to turn everything off on a regular basis also. What other distractions could you have? Talking on the phone, texting, eating, I don't know just take a look. Are there other people or pets around the house that may be needing your attention. Sometimes you have to shut them out. Take the time and have a specific space to create. You know a safe place to create.

03-19-10

I bought a cup that says Create, the best way to predict the future...is to create it. How much of that do you believe. I remember when I was younger I wondered if I thought of the worst thing maybe the best would happen. Or just the opposite. I mean that was when I was pre-teen. So now what do I think. I feel like something always gets in my way. I am the only one that that can do that aren't I? Yesterday I had a long day with many different people and I saw an old pattern arise. My mind didn't flow, I got stressed out trying to keep a handle on the conversation. I think other people are better than me if they are educated. I went on the rock n roll touring college. Which may seem so exciting, and at the same time doesn't fill the brain with literature, art, opera or anything like that. I was feeling really good about my creating and then felt that horrible feeling I used to have. Then you know what I did. I said to myself, up to this day that is how I dealt with it. I put up a guard on my mind and refused to go there. I hope that actually denying those feeling is an OK way to do it. I have heard many things. Embrace the emotion, let them flow through you.
That is why self improvement is quite a journey.
My challenge to you today is for you to take a look at how your education or lack of it could effect you creating. Judgments sometimes come with intellect, academia, doing it right, or what a teacher may think is the way. And Big Culture Events, I never got to be involved in any of those, never was exposed to them. My family wasn't prone to that, rock n roll wasn't, even with acting all my focus and money went on the craft. Maybe it is time to love, respect and trust myself and actually learn more about these things I know nothing of. How about You?

03-18-10

My challenge to you today is to take a piece of paper and draw a picture of your mind. You can rip things out a magazine or use any thing you want to take this challenge. I did mine and I was very surprised. My mind still had dark dark scribbles and then broken shards of my heart everywhere. My mind thinks I am broken. I was so surprised. My mind thinks that if I go somewhere else I won't show up. Like I would be fixed if I was in a different place, like another state or something. That just isn't healthy thinking. Then this morning I got out of my meditation that I use this past tortured soul as an excuse not to live life. I was shocked again. I don't think I have a tortured soul. But I guess I think that somewhere in that mind of mine.
So now I am going to be a guard to my mind. Deeper and Deeper I go the more I find out and the more I can let it GO!!!!
Take the Draw the Mind challenge and see what lays beneath the surface.

03-17-10

First of all I had better address the idea of St. Patrick's Day. Well now I addressed it. I have never really been into that holiday even though it may be a drinking day. HA. Green beer would just be weird. I did find a green shirt and it looks horrible but I may wear it just because. I got my meditation written for my friends website today. I hope she thinks it is meditative. I got 2 big projects done or off to a roaring start these last 3 days. I am very excited. I was so excited I couldn't sleep and got up and created art work for 10 more affirmation cards. You know you are doing something you love when you have a hard time stopping. You want to keep going even though you may be tired. I stopped and then came right back at it. I don't know where the inspiration came from. I was thinking of that this morning after my meditation. I just drew things I have never drawn before or thought of. One carried to the next. I didn't worry about ruining the whole page, I didn't worry. Now that was fun. I have 3 more pages left so hopefully when I get a chance to do that I will be able to get into that flow again. Now I am off to give a private acting class and go to choir class. Tomorrow I have many appointments and things to do. But not so much on my creative projects.
My challenge to you and to me today is to think of two new projects you can get up and going. What could it be, a clothing line, a novel, a childrens book, a play, a dance, a new song. Oh, I have one for me and I am going to announce it right now. This year I want to sing 2 songs that I have written at my church at a Sunday Service. How would that be. Wow, at Christmas when I did one of my own songs, I thought I goofed it up terribly and I cried really hard afterward. So this is a big Challenge. But it fits My Big New Life, My Big New Love and My Big New Heart. Go forth and create BIG>>>>>>>>>

03-16-10

Oh my gosh. I laid down after a long day of creating original artwork with words. And having some difficult with the technical part as I did yesterday except new issues showed up. I tried to take a nap earlier but I was to excited about creating. But I woke up and looked at the clock and thought it was 7:30 am not pm then I thought what did I write in my blog. I didn't remember because I had chosen a quote I wanted to work from and I couldn't remember what I wrote.
With that story, here I am I only laid down for about a half an hour so I am back and ready to write the quote...by Ernest Holmes.
"You exist that Divine feeling, fire, imagination and creativity may be expressed through you. The Spirit comes to you with a new and fresh creativity. You need not ask what others have done or how they have done it. Be yourself and express life as you find it. Never imitate. Trust the self." What does that sound like to you? I love it. It makes me feel good. IT makes me feel on purpose, if fells right.
What about you? My challenge to you is to take a look how you create. Do you want to do it like others? Do you pave a path for yourself? Do you stop yourself because others may think you are foolish? You never follow through. You do this and it gets you nowhere. SHUT UP!! Let those thoughts go and know that you have your path. You have your creativity. No one knows this except yourself. Yes, we can be foolish, we can go one direction and then turn to another, but that is the part of creativity that is your own.

03-15-10

I have to admit that typing in the date actually has a meaning, a feeling. a commitment to the day that somehow matters more than my private writing. I have the image of these words resonating with someone as others words have done for me. I try to listen and teach my day to myself and anyone that is willing to listen.
I have had a project in the works for a project and in my long sighted meditation this morning I realized it was doing two projects at one time. Figuring the technical reality of my artwork and the actual typed word on something I could cut and print. Have a master and a temp let got for cutting reasons became a wild mind experience within itself. We have these awesome ideas and then what happens. It is physically, computer wise, program wise, hard to figure out.
My challenge to you as it is to me is to take a look at technology and see where you stand in that creativity world. I know what I want to be a final project but putting my artwork behind text in the perfect cutting dimensions feels totally impossible, and I just bought a program that didn't help. HELP!! Got a call from a friends husband trying to help me out with this. I am so grateful and at the same time we ran into the same problems.
My challenge for you today is take a look at what projects you want to create and what obstacles that are technical, and what ones are not. Wow. I have put hours and hours into a mix of my artwork and using the computer.
That is just the way it is. take care..l i n d a

03-14-10

Have you ever got so excited because you get to do what you want to do, or what you are driven to do, or created to do? Then wham, you forget your lines, you aren't in your body at an audition, or you never submit your transcript or screenplay (whatever) for fear of rejection? I wanted to sing so bad when I played in a rock band that when I got the chance, I puked after the song and my manager said,"You are never gonna sing on stage again". It took 10 years of therapy and singing classes before I could even try again. I would get sick to my stomach when ever anyone mentioned singing to me. Another example is I have someone very close to me that didn't pursue a large career as a singer even though he was given a great gift and I believe it was out of fear. I think I heard him say that the audition process and proving himself was to stressful. I cannot quote the exact words. But putting yourself out there for any critique could possible be devastating. I know because I chose acting which is like an interview over and over to be rejected to a very large percentage. When I had built up the confidence it wasn't a big deal, but I remember having many panic moments, humiliation, beat myself up for weeks, or years...I don't know if that ever goes away. I hear of famous actors or singers like Barbara Streisand have had performance attacks. You may think, what, a great singer like that scared. Bless her heart for being truthful.
My challenge to you today is to check into your past near and far to see where fear gets in your way. There are many aspects to fear, so you have to really take a close look. Fear likes to hide, or blame, or confuse you. In the Big Picture, does it really matter that you were rejected 43 times, and got a gig once? When you lay on your death bed or look back at your life do you really want to realize it then?
IT REALLY DOESN'T MATTER!!!!!!!!

03-13-10

OK. It is Saturday and it is a beautiful day and my beautiful family is here and we had a great dinner last night, watched a movie and then woke up to the a whole weekend looking at us. I am excited. But what I woke up to was a feeling of something is wrong. It felt normal, it is the way I have been waking up for years, and years maybe centuries. I realized it was programed in me and it kept me safe on some sick level. I remember looking at people laughing and walking on the street and wondered how they did that. I mean just let go and be happy. I always had a doom factor in there. I am getting closer and closer to letting go of each little bit as it comes and moving into freedom. Even if it is for seconds, it is a new feeling in my body, in my mind and my soul. I faintly remember this goodness, this rightness, this safety, this knowing that everything is OK or even better than OK right now. I remember a feeling of, I can do anything, when I was very young. That got beaten out of me and my soul hid, my creativity hid, my true thoughts, I could not safely be seen or heard. No wonder I became an actor. I could be seen and heard in a safe place. I want to be seen and heard in the world now. And know it is a safe place. I can live this life of freedom to be seen and heard. I don't need to worry what others think, I have no control over that as they have no control over what I think.
Today's challenge is to see if you can recognize some underlying feeling or belief that may be ready to come to the surface today. It could be a link to how you work in the world. What you bring into your world, how people react to you. Are you seen and heard in your authentic self? Or are you trying to be seen and heard how you want others to perceive you. Trying to figure out what others wanted me to be and giving them that seemed to keep me safe. I just made that up. I don't want to hid anymore how about you?

03-12-10

Today let us talk about de-cluttering once again. I had a dream last night and about a mile of stuff like a warehouse full of rubbish came off my back. I have had back problems for at least the last 5 Years, it has gotten so bad at some points I couldn't figure out how to get off the floor or I have ended up in the emergency ward because I couldn't move. I am happy to say my back is much better with years and thousands of dollars working with different techniques and finding people that actually knew what they were doing. This is from chiropractors to physical therapists and energy work.
The energy work has been the best because my aches and pains and my scoliosis was caused by stuck energy. Things that hadn't moved for years, or decades it felt like. My intestines were stuck to my back and all the muscles were holding so tight that it pulled my spine and made it very crooked. This may sound strange but things are now moving and having this dream was really great because then I could feel lighter and I wasn't carrying around everything I thought I had to hold on too. I think it was like all my fears, doubts, sadness, worries, protection that I have dealt with all my life finally had permission to leave. I wasn't quite asleep when all of this happened. The I tried to seperate myself from the rubbish and leave it in a secure place. I remember walking through it and say, if anyone can do something with this it is linda she can create something new out of this old stuff........I am trying to keep that in mind. Then I realized all the actual clutter and holding on of my possessions was really connected to this holding and protecting out of fear. It seems so obvious but just yesterday I was looking at the mess in my car and wondering why I really like it that way. I actually like the mess. I think I am just so used to it. So I decided to get rid of one thing everyday. Give, throw or sell something. So what did I do I went right to a drawer and pulled out 2 t shirts I haven't worn in years and instead of giving them away I am making pillows to sell out of them....So it is just like my dream making something out of the old into something new.
My challenge to you today is to take a look around you, is there piles of papers or stuff that could be gone through. Check out your body and see if there are places where things seem stuck. Try putting the two together some how. Are you hanging on to something you really don't need too. Do you live in fear, lack, doubt, confusion. Spring is always a good time to allow room for the new. That is what I was missing. IF you are filled up and have too much stuff where is the room for more. You can't just keep piling stuff on top of other stuff. Or can we...Yes we can....I am going to try and take a look at every individual item and deal with it appropriatly.

03-11-10

Good morning world. I just got up hours before I really needed too. I hate when that happens. I love my dreamland. I have a new phenomenon that I love. I call it dreamland. I have 15 minutes dreams for hours early in the morning. And they are like little life scenes, I am always amazed at who shows up, what we say and do. My imagination is quite active. I have always dreamed but these are almost instant and I almost have some control. They have given me many ideas. And most of the time I remember everything or almost everything and can use it in creating in this realm. My husband doesn't dream much. He is a much heavier sleeper than I. I also have become a moaner. I love a soft moan with my breath going out, it is like a sigh, and it releases and grounds me, relaxes me and what a great thing when you are in bed. Except you bother anyone else that is in the area. So I have changed to just breathing deeply and imagining I moan a sigh out. My husband is a moaner, my son is a moaner and now I have taken on that trait, with modifications. Remember the Cone heads, we are the Moaners.
My daily challenge is for you to think about your sleeping routine. Do you dream or not? Can you remember your dreams? Has your dreams every given you a creative idea? The book and movies Twilight was given to the author in a dream, and in her wanting to remember the dream she started writing. She even hid it from her family as the subject matter seemed so bazaar at the time. I have songs come to me upon waking, I have titles, words, pictures, all sorts of things come during sleep, upon waking and through daily meditations. You are to take a look at your life and see how this works for you. There is no good way or right way, just take notice. You may need to keep a voice recorder or notebook and pen by your bed. I make myself write things down cuz you won't remember in the morning, even when you think you will. Sleep Well, dream well and create.

03-10-10

Last night at welding things didn't go as well as usual. Is it the equipment? Is it me? Things just didn't go well. So I heard my little voice in me say well maybe welding isn't for me after all. I amgoing to ruin my new welder, I really didn't do all the work...blah blah blah. And besides that my stomach had that feeling it gets when I am fearful, disappointed, humiliated. Then this morning I realized that that was a real habit with me. And I did a little work on it. What my mind says when things don't go as well as I wanted. Are those things the truth, and do I act like they are the truth. I usually do. I am changing that. IF I am afraid that is even better. I am making the choice to live a Big Life and Fear just doesn't fit into that.
This is my challenge to you, when something doesn't go as smooth as possible what do you think? How does your body feel? Is that the way you want it to be? Do you think you have a choice? I think you do. So the more we can stop, be aware, take a look, then you make a choice. How great is that. Free Will!!! In an instant things can change......Have a great day. Pay attention!!!

03-09-10

To be or Not to be. That is the question. Is that a brilliant statement or what. It will never go out of style. Everyday we can ask ourselves that question. Then to our creations, are they to be or not to be. Are you motivated enough to work on your ideas, your visions, your dreams, your goals. What do you like to call these things that you do? Some words may not work for you like goals sometimes get you stressed out. Dead lines can do the same thing. Maybe creating doesn't work for you. That is a challenge I give you today. Find the words that juice you up. Get your energy flowing or get you excited. Make you want to stand up and say YES!!! This may be half the battle. Is "creating" a battle, struggle or a freedom. Does it cost money, make you money, or is money in the equation. All of these things may influence your decisions about giving the gifts that you were given. Let us be all we can be. Right now, today!!!

03-08-10

One Mind, One Presence, One Intelligence. Is that what you believe? It just seems natural to think of the nature of things. Nature makes the seeds sprout, the bulbs grow, the leaves change, makes your fingernails grow, ages you. Now how can you not believe in that creative intelligence. This is the way I am choosing to see it right now. And I am excited about the outcome. If I am a part of this big picture would I rank on it. Do I tell a tree it is stupid or too fat. The birds fly to high and they sing too loud. The waves aren't enough, they just aren't getting it right. HA. Why would I say that to myself if I am a part of this beauty.
This is my mind now. The creative mind. The mind of creation. It doesn't have to have a name, a religion, a face, a body, it simply is.
My challenge to you is to ask yourself, what is your beliefs on how things work in the world. How do you believe things are created? Is there something bigger than yourself that has this nature thing in line? Are you a part of Nature? What is your Nature? Are you your past? Are you right now? Connect with your breath, that breath is here right now and is a part of natures way of taking care of you. You are taken care of and I believe this is the intelligence I am speaking of. Hope this isn't to woo woo for you.......It makes me relax, trust and not get down on myself so much. See how it works for you.

03-07-10

How Big Are You? I heard a talk today and it hit me, that I sometimes try and stay small. I was taught that in my home. This has become an excuse. When what is in your heart is as big as the universe, why would we hid that? Well, we all have our reasons don't we. Staying small has built a little prison around my soul. IT is a habit. Habits can be changed.
The Oscars are on right now. How Big is that? I knew at one point in my acting career I could get an Academy Award. The reason being I was active in the acting community, I was real, I was practiced, I had the confidence. I don't have that now. That is OK. That is a dream I put to rest.
My challenge to you is to take a look at how big you live. Have you lived bigger before and then trimmed it down some. What would be the Biggest Life you can even think of? I am going to give that some thought. I am ready to Live Big. I say Yes to life, Yes to Abundance, and Yes to living Big from the Heart. Poised and confident. Maybe I will write a new song tonight. Maybe I will make a dance, film it and put it on YouTube. Maybe I will get in the hot tub and go to bed. Maybe I will start Jogging again. I can do anything, can YOU?

03-06-10

OK. I have done this 3 times today. Why it changed on me I really don't know. I wanted to share my 20 year practice with you. Meditation. I set my alarm at least a half an hour before I have to get up. On a good day I can have an hour meditation. I love it. The first 20 minutes is a recorded guided meditation using my voice over great mellow music. This starts with my breath and then goes into relaxing every part of my body and imaging my energy flowing like a river. The negative moving away and the healing power of flow moving through every cell.
Then if I have time I do what I call float. It is like I am in space, or in The Gap. It is like the space between the notes, the space between words or even between letters. I love it there. It is something that I have been searching for all of my life.
One pre meditation note I want to tell you is to allow your crazy mind to think anything that it wants. This seems to allow it to mellow out and quiet down for you.
My challenge to you is to meditate today, or tomorrow morning. Conviction is the way to start. It helps with creativity, it allows room for new, it helps an idea to mature. Trust yourself and see where it can take you. Be grateful for who you are and your individual ideas. Now go and be quiet. Connect to something larger than yourself, larger than your problems, larger than the worlds problems. There is a bigger picture.

03-05-10

Hello!! Tonight is the Art Walk in a town near mine. And I wanted to go but I worked today and my art friend that I might have went with is going with her husband. Awesome for her but I didn't want to tag along.
So I got excited about having my own art walk at my house. I have a couple new visions that I wanted to work on. So I am. I have wire, string and canvas in the works. Why do I love Trees so much. Do you find yourself gravitated to certain things?
My challenge to you is to take an art walk around your house. What do you love? What do you look at? What inspires you? Are you gravitated to certain themes? Modern, Trees, Angels, Abstract, Bright colors? Just take a look, it might give you an inspiration to create something that you love, from what you already love. Love is good. If you love it, do it, if you love it, buy it. Love is really a great way to look at life, surround yourself with what you love......love me

03-04-10

This is the first day in a long time I have felt this good for this long. I mean it. All those bad thoughts that can live in your mind have found a home for years in the helmet of my mind. But things are becoming clearer and clearer on how the brain wants to rant and rave and truly believes it is right. It thinks it is God and creates. Well, it is just made up stories and I am rewriting those stories. I am sick and tired of this mess my mind made. The book on excuses has a medical report on Virus of the Mind. And I believe it. How they go from one person to another. And we pass them down to our children.
If I keep my convictions to have a happier, healthier more abundant life, I can. It is that easy. I don't think so, but with daily practice and strong conviction for a better life everyday. This is all that I can do.
My challenge to you today is to take a real look at what your stories are? Are they from childhood? How do these stories stop you from creating, or believing it is a safe place to create. Do they include humiliation, shame, guilt, unworthiness, not good enough or even worse? You know you would think that with all this world can bring to you, we would give up our suffering, our struggle, but more times that less we still are victims of our stories, of what we believe to be true. When they can be forgotten like a bad dream, or a good dream. We don't need to keep our lives, emotions, actions or lack of them on these stories that we can put to rest. I say Thank you, and I say Yes, to abundance, Yes, to Life and Yes, to Love.

03-03-10

Off to work. I am so excited about my welding last night. Firsts of all it wasn't my technique that was bad with the plasma cutter it was needing a new tip. They I just cruised with the cutting. It like I was ice skating on the metal and my skates were sparking everywhere. That made my cutting smooth. What a strange way to cut straight and smooth. Breathing was important also. If I held my breath I couldn't cut that smoothly also. I did forget to wear a glove one day and I picked up a piece of hot metal. And my thumb got burnt bad. But the cold water and some burn ointment took the pain away. I look branded and I don't mind at all. It is my first real scare. It probably won't stay a scar. Who knows. I will wear it with pride. I got one of my girls done. She is so cute.
Ok my challenge to you today is when you are creating in one area does thinking of some other physical thing help you. Like I imagined ice skating. Maybe music would be a good choice for capturing a feeling. But the smoothness of the Olympic ice skaters have been in my dreams ever since I saw them. I even got my roller skates out. Well that may have been a mistake...HA>
have a great day...........

03-02-10

You know I have so many welding projects that I want to do I could have the whole class busy doing different things and building my projects. That isn't going to happen and I only have tonight and one more class. I am trying to get things cut out so I can weld them at home. Cuz I did get a little MIG welder for my birthday and am wanting to weld all the pieces that I can cut in class tonight and next week. I am so excited about the projects. I have a little metal girl, a tree and then another long branch that is flat. Kind of hard to visualize. When I finish them I will put pictures on this blog.
The Oscars are coming, Yeah!!! There are movies that I want to see. That I need to see. The one that Tom Ford directed is about living in the now. Am Now. Can't wait to see it.
My challenge to you is to take a look at your projects you have on your plate? What would it be like if you had a crew to get them done? Is there a way you can get a cycle going that will work with the project. Like paint this one night and another part the next night. Or give yourself a deadline and become accountable to someone. I have a time limit for using equipment in class so I am really on a deadline. Have a great creative experience.

03-01-10

A new month already. This is exciting. It really has been some kind of blessing to have this blog. Somedays I really don't want to write. Well, I want to write but I didn't know what to write. I have started another new book so want to start a conversation on Excuses. I believe I wrote a little blog on this earlier. But I am willing to take another at it. There are some things I have been wanting to do, need to do and I am not taking the time to do them. One is send some paperwork into an insurance agency, another is filling out a form to get a job teaching at a community college. So I am going to take a look at why I haven't taken the time.
Well, first it isn't fun, it isn't creative, I don't enjoy it. But it could help the financial landscape. Don't I care about that. I was just depressed at my bank account. So I guess it does matter to me.
Am I to lazy to take responsibility for myself? OK. I stopped writing this blog and I got my insurance paperwork done and ready to go. Then I got the paperwork out to teach a class at the community college. There are at least 8 pages. I will start it right now before I finish this blog. You know I was really embarrased telling you these simple things I have put off for a month or so.
I started the pages of the school application, and I just filled out 4 pages that I didn't need too. Maybe that is why I don't want to do this. I am not good at filling out applications. I already wasted 45 minutes of struggling with my work history, and all the phone numbers. etc. Now that I got the work out of the way that I didn't need to do, I will work on the rest of it this evening. I would like to teach acting again. OK. but for now I am going to finish painting my outdoor meditation bed. Then I will do the work. I promise.
My challenge to you is to take a look and see if there is something sitting there that you need to do or have wanted to get done for a while now. What do you tell yourself? When I wrote it in the blog it made me feel icky in the stomach. Not a good sign. I feel better already. Have a good one....Take the challenge.