04-30-10

OK of all the days to totally not want this blog to disappear was today. I am having a brain fart, a brain block, nothing is flowing.
My challenge to you is to see what distracts you? I was waiting for a call and I started watching TV and I am still watching it. I am not motivated. I want to go to sleep. I got off work early and what happened, I just totally got distracted. I have many creations to create and I am not even going to start any of them. And I am finding this to be OK.;

How do you feel about it?

Let us look at the Law of Creation. I had an assignment to write down my desires and carry them around for a week and look at them. Then I started to see how I don't make room for my desires, or I don't take small steps to get the desires later. So I started a couple actions to get my motorcycle. I started a little cup to put money in. I put a picture of a motorcycle on it. Each day I will put money in. Even if it is a quarter. Two of my other desires have start to come about. I talked yesterday about a random email to apply for a grant for writing a blog, Who knew....Then last night in choir we used one of my chants to write a collaboration song for our May performance. It was something I wrote 3 years ago.
So in less than a week I have created 2 experiences from my list of desires. I see it as the Law of Creation. I Created them with the Play Dough of the Universe.
My challenge to you is to write your desires and think about them everyday for just a week. Keep track of anything that you may have created from the list. See what may stop you from creating from the list. It works.....but we have to pay attention. Awareness is a great thing to start doing. Have a great day.

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04-28-10

I am so excited, I am going to try and get a grant for writing my blog. I got an email and blog is actually one of the grants selections. Now that is money for creating. Just to be able to apply means a lot to me. Now that is creating. And believing in monies coming from places you may not expect. I am on the correct current of energy to have that sent to me. I really have no idea how I got it sent to me. I am grateful for this.
My challenge of the day is where do you limit yourself with money? Money and creativity.
Sometimes people don't allow the two together. Are you a suffering artist? Or are you as creative at being a magnet for money as you are your Art? Let us look at this. I am going to look at it deeper and deeper. Have a great creative day and evening. Sing your song.

04-27-10

Had a great drive home over a beautiful pass and it was even raining. Winter is over and spring is in the air even though we are getting storms in Oregon. What is on the creation front? What is a safe place to create from? A big realization came in the landscape of the canyons and mountains, along with the vast flat desert plains. I had trouble sleeping a couple of nights. The strangest dreams that were full length movies. I blogged about it yesterday. But the realization today after nursing a stress headache from 2>00am and getting in a whirlpool tub at 6:30 am with Advil running through my veins, was I really hadn't realized the devastation of my so called failure in LA. I was holding on to what I was once. A well known actress in my own right. I was known to be Portlands best and then did well in LA about 10 years ago. And now I came back to Oregon with my tail between my legs. I have had anxiety around any auditions, with any kind of name people and real happy just to not audition. FAILURE, and LOSER were big Boulders I was hanging onto. I was still trying to fit into that mold or person I was years ago. I was pretending and hiding that I really had lost my confidence that I had years ago when that is all I had on my table was...I was an actress. I had class, I taught, I auditioned and I worked. Well LA put a stop to some of that. I couldn't get an audition, I did teach and I did cast. I did produce also. But never a network audition, the managers and agents couldn't get any in. I wasn't in class as a student. I had a reputation to maintain and I can't do it anymore. I am humbled and I am where I am right at this moment. I don't care if people think I failed, that I just couldn't make it. It is an ego thing and I was working so hard at keeping that and I am not that any more. Thank God. I am just who I am at this moment and I don't have to have anxiety over acting or pretending to be what I once was. I am not that anymore and I don't care what anyone thinks of that.
My challenge to you today is to see what you think your reputation is and is it a shadow that you try and pretend to be and that is not who you truly are anymore. It is a tough road to go when you are living a reputation. You are not your reputation. You are not your age, you are not your name, you are not your body. What are you? You are a spiritual being living in a human body. And believe me that is not an easy job for anyone. Give up your reputation and be who and what you are right now and know that is enough and go from there. Humble yourself to right now.

04-26-10

My challenge to you is to take a look at your dreams. I may have talked about dreams before but I am finding how truly important they are to your creative self. My friend commented on how she can't remember her dreams very often. Are you like that? Or do you have movies running through your head? They could easily be made into a movie.
Take a look at that. I have drawn pictures, wrote songs in my dreams and wake up and write them down. Maybe that would work for you too. The creative force is working around the clock. My second day of a cleanse and I have to admit I am a little hungry and a little disappointed that I haven't lost those pounds. It is a good cleanse and I will keep up the good work after this is all over. Protein shakes and protein soup and one meal. I want to be fit. Yes I do. Dream and fit. I did dream a lot about food, booze and drugs. OH WEll!!

04-25-10

Hello everyone, What a day I have had. I am doing a cleanse day. Yes, that means not food. IT isn't easy all the time. My stomach is growling. The best things we did was go for an adventure to go about a mile and a half down to the Deschutes River, we had to go down the Canyon on a little trail. Going down was easy then we put our feet in the water and two things fell in the water, but my friend saved them with her little stick. My hat fell in and her sunglasses. What fun is that. Coming up I have to admit was a little harder. My heart was beating and I couldn't go as fast as my friend. So I had to not judge myself and go at my own pace. That is hard for me.
My challenge for you is to see if you go at your own pace or do you try and go at other peoples pace. I know I have always tried to keep up with others. But as anything the only pace you have is your own. Listen to your own pace and see what that is? It is the perfect pace. Love to all.

04-24-10

My challenge to you today is to practice something. And or get ready to practice,like get the lyrics and chords. Get the right shoes and move around the house. Practice is for everything. Relationships, Spiritual growth everything takes practice. I forgot.
Anything. Last night we went and and sang Karaoke and we couldn't sing any songs together because I like Rock and she likes Country. It was very frustrating. Then we came home a practiced our guitars and tried to do songs and we didn't know any songs together.
This has happened 2 or 3 times in a year. But do we practice in between...NO! So this is my thing. Art, Music, Dance, Acting, Writing. all takes practice. Practice something today.
Do a sketch. Do something.......Yeah!!! live and learn from me.

04-23-10

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Check out this website. You may have to cut and paste, it is my friends site and she has done such a wonderful job of creating it. I am on the meditation page. I was going to be a bigger part of this project I think, but I really didn't give it the attention that I needed. She was doing it pretty much full time except for family interruptions. I am excited to even be a small part of this huge undertaking. Part of my creating is learning how to do programs so I can send meditations to you . To People that want and need them. I meditate every morning and I use one of my own, with my own voice. It clears me of unwanted energies. and clears me to my own light energy.
My challenge to you today is to meditate? Do you think it is hard? Do you do it regularly and if you do what does it give you. You may want to remind yourself of this great gift you can give yourself. I also did something I haven't done in years. I did a few Yoga moves and yes it is awesome and I will have to incorporate those in my days to come. My back had been bad enough that I couldn't do any of the moves. I am limber enough now that I can do the Salute to the Sun, which is one of my favorites. I actually learned it in an acting class. Yoga is good for any-kind of creating and becoming grounded. This has been a great day of allowing the day to unfold. To catch up on the reading that is required for a class I am in. For reflecting on now, and forward, for creating affirming words that can form the future.
The Play Doe of Tomorrow. Believe in Success, Believe in Abundance, Know that you are attracting people that would love to help you in your creations....YES to ALL!! Have even a better tomorrow....

04-22-10

Hello from Eastern Oregon. I am leaving my family to be with a dear friend and we always talk about spirit. We always talk about creativity. I brought her my 60 creative Heart Cards. I have talked about creating them....She loved them.
I also brought her flowers. I drove over a great pass and saw some snow and the sun is really shining and this is so so great for creativity.
My challenge to you is to be Aware of the Beauty around you and your Worthiness to Create around it. This friend that I am visiting I gave sketch pencils and a sketch book for her own creativeness. She has one picture started. And I am excited to see her creations. Great creating to all...

04-21-10

A day off after 8 days of working. It feels like heavan on earth. Creation is happening. I got to finish a couple projects and actually started a brand new project that has been on hold because I didn't know how to do it or I didn't have the time to figure it out also. So I feel awesome.
My challenge to you today is there a project that you could finish up? Is there one you could start? Maybe you need to download a program onto your computer. Maybe you need to pull out the sewing machine. Maybe you need to organize your paints or papers.
I don't know what it is but take a look and do One thing towards a project of yours. Even if it is to journal about it. Maybe you are stuck, maybe you feel like you don't have time or energy. Maybe you need to call a friend. Just take a look. I did and I got some things done. YEAH!!!

04-20-10

My challenge today is to look at your physical being. How is your energy? How are your joints, your bones, your heart, your fat content?
You know what I have found out? I can do simple exercises during the normal every day situations. Like in the morning and at night I can do a stomach Yoga exercise after I brush my teeth. When I get out of the hot tub I do stomach exercises. This is a way to stay healthy and conscious and having a great creative life.

04-19-10

I have had an idea for a creation for quite some time now. Do I ask someone to help me create it? I think I need to do that, then I need to ask someone to market it, then I need to see if someone blah blah blah. See I shut myself down before I even get started. I am going to go out to my studio and get the drawings right now. I will not take no for an answer. I will not take fear of asking into consideration. I will look risk, fear and failure straight in the eye. You cannot take me down. I am inspired. I am unleashing my power. How about that kids?
My challenge to you is what? Are you willing to ask for help?
The end. Really how many times do we stop ourselves because we won't ask for help in an area that we may not know about. Like Marketing? Take a look at that. Iam and I will conquer any unwillingness to ask for help.

04-18-10

I had written quite a bit on this blog and accidentally lost it. I am moving to a place of complete serenity. My post today is about awe and wonder. I am taking in the room that I moved to to write this blog. I call it the ocean room. I have pictures I have painted of ocean landscapes, I have a fish open to the universe, I have colors with sand and ocean balls. It is very peaceful.
I will go back to what I was writing originally. Wonder of touch, Wonder of smells, wonder of sound. What do you think of all of this?
Could a sound provoke a feeling, or an image that might turn into a story. Smells really conduct reactions in the human body. I have a friend that really had senses that I didn't understand. Like textiles, flowers, anything, and every little things she just got it. I was going to fast and not getting it. I envied her. I really did. I wanted to be in that moment and have that sensation of beauty and expression.
I had to have fake fingernais for a movie part and I had to have them for quite a long time. It made me experience everything differently. Not good or bad but a new. I once had a thing for wearing different shoes every day so I would force myself to be in the moment with my feet on the ground. This is not a bad practice. You may want to try it. It is like walking in the sand or on gravel or on grass or on high, high heels. All a different experience.
My challenge for you today (which will probably be tomorrow since it is so late), is to see just how much awe and wonder you put into your day? Do you really touch things and experience that touch? Do you smell and feel how that makes you feel? It is like smelling Christmas dinner, or Thanksgiving dinner, what does that evoke in you? Look around like a small child and see everything a new, as if you have never ever seen it before or experienced it.
Good night and an even better tomorrow.......

04-17-10

This is my challenge for the day. I will use the word Nature, but I want you to use a word that suits you. I mean the Omni Presence, God, Higher Power, The intelligence that makes everything grow.
The challenge is to ask yourself these questions and see what comes up for you?
1. Were you born here to be a leader or a follower? Do you do what your truly believe in or do you do what you think you need to do to fit in and be a part of the crowd?
2. Did Nature want Big or small for you?
3. Does Nature want to turn negativity into yourself or to others?
4. Does Nature want you to imprison your ability to grow, your light, your goodness, your love, your passion?
5. Does Nature want you to smile and glow light upon the day or doom and gloom?
6. Does Nature want you to have free will for your individual talents and gifts or to do what society, media, or peer pressure wants you to do, feel, create?
7. Who are you? A natural living being connected to nature or are you a programmed stressed out robot of the society?
8. Who makes your schedule? Do you make unhealthy choices in your schedule that you may have control of?
9. How much time do you spend reflecting, meditating, listening, quieting your mind?
10. Do you think your mind is right? Do you think your mind is in control?
11. How do you make decisions?
12. Where does stress come from? Is there someone, something out there pounding stress into your veins? How much comes from your own pressure on yourself?
13. What is your purpose in Nature?
14. Do you think you have Demons?
This was a little quiz that was given to me in a meditation. Simple but complex at the same time. We go and don't look at what we are doing everyday, what we are attempting to do, what we desire, want, etc. How do we get these things?
Let us discover just how all of this is done in conjunction with the energy of the universe and the energy of you. Your purpose here, your true meaning, your true desire and mission that you want before you pass on to another realm.
Now is that too woo woo for you? Think about what your beliefs are in this life and where you go from here or what you want to leave here,. Now that is a new blog for me.
'good night......

04-16-10

oh yeah this is the life. The first night I have been home in a long time. I was so excited to be home by 6:00pm. But with a little headache. all day coming home wasn't the fun thing I expected. But this is the life now. I ate, took some advil, took an icepack to bed for 15 minutes, then got in the hot tub and my headache is gone. I slept on a new pillow last night thinking it was a better pillow and I believe that is what put my shoulder out which went straight up to my head for that ache. With the headache gone I thought I need to go outside it is still beautiful at 7:30. So I unplugged my computer and went out on my deck to get the fresh air, the fresh thought and all the birds having a party. The green is so lush, the moss so long as is the lawn. I was hungry for something and I ate, I think I was hungry for love, for nature for creation.
Being outside is a great gift. It is inspiring. It is connected, it is my favorite place to be. I have fire pit out by the pond and a chiminia on the deck for the love of fire. Hot tub for the love of water, fire and water are my two favorite. I feel the need to babble a little, so thank you for your understanding.
Unleash the Power was yesterday, today in my meditation of Deeper and Deeper it said it had been unleashed. YEAH! And then it said, It is Time. How I perceive that is that it is time for me to claim what has been rightfully mine all my life and I chose to push it down and not acknowledge it. See I said Chose. No one made me do anything. I made decisions and I stuck with them. I did this out of fear and protection. Which when you are young is your best bet if you want to make it to adulthood. But now I choose differently. I chose to live the life I knew was there all the time. The freedom to be me and not care what anyone else things. I have some big questions for you and I may put them in this blog tomorrow. Because we need to start asking the hard questions.
That is my challenge to you today. Start asking the hard questions. Are there relationships that need to be cleared up, are you holding on and not forgiving others and yourself. Are you letting go of the past or are you living it over and over and over and over. STop it!! You can in an instant. You can change your mind in an instant. You have that power. I have that power, everyone has that power you just forgot. This world strips you of who you knew you were when you were born. A precious miracle of life. And whether your childhood was good, bad or ugly you can change your mind.
I am reclaiming my love, my life, my voice, my grace. I am not saying it is easy all the time but I want my thoughts now to create a more peaceful, loving, abundant world for all, and it all starts in idea which we turn into substance. We mold our future by what we think today. What are you thinking about? How good you feel? How healthy you are getting? How much fun it is to wake up? Trust me I had to turn myself totally around to think the good comes easily. But when you think it it does. Imagine that!!!

04-15-10

My challenge for you to day is to think about going deeper. Think of deeper inside you, maybe in your gut, maybe in your heart. But inside of you. Deeper to Deeper. Sometimes a vision, a small voice, a saying, a feeling, a belief will be revealed to you when you do this. See if you resist going deeper, it could be out of fear of feeling something you have pushed down for years. Fear of being hurt or rejected. Deeper and deeper we can go to connect and to get some meaningful creative juices flowing. A story may evolve with such action. Try it. I did and it encouraged me to
UNLEASH THE POWER, now I have to figure out what that is. It said it was time. I like what the Deeper has to say. Have a great Deep day.

04-14-10

What is going on? Let's see, I am creatively deprived. I had fun doing a little movie shoot this weekend, and then looking around Portland, which I haven't been for a really long time. But as far as painting, welding, beading, drawing, writing, song writing, I haven't got to do much of that. I did write a new song this weekend. (a partial song). How many of you are creatively deprived? I have made more money this month than I have in a while but at the cost of creativity. I am creative in new ways to dress, new ways to think, homework and new ways to treat people. These maybe one of the best ways to create. A better way to work in the world. See, I feel better already.
My challenge to you is to ask yourself, are you creatively deprived or do you maybe just think you are because you aren't creating ART. Remember Art is your life, and your life is your Art. So how you live is creative, and a form of Art. You are molding the substance of the universe in a positive way. Treating people with compassion, understanding and acceptance. Well, hopefully you are doing the positive thing.

04-13-10

We are all of one mind so we are the mind of every number one hit song, best selling book, academy award screenplay and actor. We are of it all. Who limits you? Your spouse, you partner, your boss, YOURSELF?
My challenge to you today is to really think about the concept of the hit songs are out in the universe and they are there for anyone who allows themselves to pick up that frequency and then of course you have to take action. Remember movement from a blog a while back.. So at the same time who do you think limits you? Write them down and ask yourself is that really the truth? Can anyone crawl inside your body and mind and beat you down. You may think they do, but that is just a thought away. In an instant that thought can be gone. Like a pile of ashes and you blow them away. You can say until today I believed (they) limited me by their words and or actions. But NOT anymore!
Whoosh be gone!

01-12-10

I have had quite a revelation. I was told I had lots of energy. I knew that. And at the same time I was asked to be grounded because I was disrupting the electrical equipment. What my AHA moment was was maybe it is my own energy that drives me crazy. I always thought it was others energy that drove me crazy. I am fine when I am all by myself but then wow, I have been humbled on this trip by my own accord. On the way to the shoot I realized I have not given enough respect for the project and its original creator. I have not taken responsibility for myself and what I can give her. I again have been selfish and ungiving. This pattern was created in my life at a young age. If I gave it was too scary and everything was broken or taken away.
I know now that I won't live that. In an instant you can decide you are not going to react that way anymore. You may at first just notice and still react but that is a start at recognizing that next time I don't want to react that way. Or you can stop in the middle of a reaction. A programed response.
My challenge to you today is to ask yourself "how does your energy effect others?" Better yet since you really can't know that because you aren't them is "how do you think they think your energy effects them?" It may be different. I am looking at grounding more of my energy instead of having it flailing around the universe. Maybe that is why I don't get things done like I would like. Have a great great day and watch that energy.

01-11-10

I am doing a little movie shoot with a friend and I am loosing my energy. Being around a lot of people that is what happens. I want a way out. I want to eat to much. I did that. I want to meditate. These are good things to find out about yourself. Since this day is full of shooting a short movie I will make the blog short. One thing I know for sure is that when you pull out a camera there are people everywhere wanting to be in the movie.
My challenge to you today is to see where and how your energy gets drained. Or maybe it doesn't. If it does what do you want to do to not feel that feeling. I know what I want to do. Make myself feel different in some way. That is something that leads to addictions. Take A look at that..
have a good night everyone and talk to you tomorrow.....

01-10-10

Today I am going to focus on rushing and getting ready to go on a trip. Because I have gotten more done in this rush to pack things up than I have in the last month. I really let things go until I really have to clean them up for my sanity. I got about 10 messes cleaned up while packing for 3 different occasions. I have my energy back and I am grounded in that energy. I have clarity in my mind and my body feels healthy. I have been focusing on this with my mind work, eating better and not allowing things to pull me down. Even with vertigo. Being a dizzy broad.
The challenge I have today I have been given by workmates and myself obviously. I want you to eat a conscious meal today. Even if it is lunch, a snack, or whatever is going into your mouth to nourish you, fuel you and heal you. Here are some of the guide lines. Prepare the food mindfully, you could even act like you are on a food network show, knowing each ingredient and really acknowledging it. Then pick out your favoite plate or bowl, utensils etc. Pick a place that you only eat when you feel special, or pick a new place that is sceneic or comfortable. Napkin at hand, sit and recognize the food before you put a bite in your mouth. I am grateful for this nourishment that my body needs for fuel and to have the energy to have a wonderful day. Then take a bite. Put the spoon or food down and have your hands emptpy, chew. and chew some more, as you chew tell yourself that this is keeping you healthy and all your cells are happy about the fiber, the protein, the carbs even the fats that you are putting in your lovely body. Then keep chewing until the whole thing is gone. This is not easy. Then take another bite and do the same thing or add your own gratitude and acknowledgment of what food really does for you. IF YOU are looking outside or are outside chew and notice your surroundings. Chew all the way don't stop before you are done. I actually started to get up from my dining room table while I was still chewing because it was time to get going again. I sat back down. Then I kept chewing until it was gone. I took notice of my stomach and I was full with only eating half of what I had planned or what was on my plate. I was full enough. I wasn't too full, half full, still hungry or anything, I was just right. Conscious eating, what a difference this makes. We eat while on the run, without knowing what goes into our mouth. We have a million excuses. Try it you will like it. I wonder how many other things we do unconsciously and without being grateful for that gift. That creation to keep us alive. Water, showers, bathrooms and on and on. Be aware today even if it is for one quick meal...don't make it too quick. No excuses, you can do this on a 10 minute break.

04-09-10

How are all of you beautiful people? You would think as much as one types they could do it rather good. How many of you get your fingers on the wrong letter and then type a whole line in gibberish? I do it all the time. Confessions here. The Laptop is a little harder than a regular keyboard for me anyway. That was just something that happens to me quite a bit.....
OK today a quote by Deepok Chopra," Stillness alone to the potentiality for creativity; movement alone is creativity restricted to certain aspect of its expression. But the combination of movement and stillness enables you to unleash your creativity in all directions --- wherever the power of your attention takes you."
What I got out of this was our meditation and quiet time is one thing but of course we have to take action. Movement seemed to fit in a very smooth way. Stillness of the mind and body is always needed for a richer more creative, happier life. Then movement is needed to keep us strong and living in the world in a healthy, clean and necessary way. Everything moves, we talked about vibration before everything is always moving anyway.
The challenge today is to see what Deepok Chopras quote means to you. Do you like the word action or movement better? Does one speak to you more than the other? I meditate every day. I move everyday, everything we do is creative movement. Whether it is deciding what to eat for lunch, what to wear, how we are going to wear our hair, doing the dishes and how we do them, brushing our teeth. We create our hygiene. Have a great night and create a good nights sleep. You do that also.

04-08-10

Have you ever ust wanted to wear something because it feels right. I used to have to buy new things because I would have an image of what would work perfect in that situation. I can't go and buy a new outfit for every occasion now but I still have that desire sometimes, not as much as I used too. Today I wanted to dress up like an artist. My perception of an artist. I have black cami with a white shirt and torn jeans. My computers jjjjjust went out. This is so weird. Sometimes things just go whooy. Yes that is a technical term. My gazebo blew over, the electricity went out and some of the lights won't work now. One toilet won't work. My internet went down. My J went out on my computer. just a lot of little things. I will forget it. I will not let these outside things determine how I am in this world. They are just things.
With things as they are today I want the challenge to be: What is going on in your world today? How are you feeling? How are things going? Smoothly or like me a little whacky. How do you allow that to effect you? Hopefully you know you are magnificent and no matter what is going on in your life you can stay connected to the creative energy that creates all. Take care my dears....

04-07-10

I had a very late post last night and then a car hit our phone lines and we have internet through the phone line. Not dial up. So I wrote a very long blog and couldn't get it out at 10:00 last night, my latest blog ever. I had to go to bed and get up at 5:00am and couldn't sleep because my blog didn't get out on time. I forgave myself.
My challenge to you is how do you forgive yourself when your self driven deadlines aren't done. I had to let go or I wouldn't get any sleep. I didn't get much anyway. Do you give yourself little daily goals, weekly, monthly or see yourself in a year having a project done. This daily routine for me has changed my life. I listen to my head talk more. I let go more. I am more forgiving with myself. And I actually get more done in the long run. Try it..... see how you do things.

04-06-10

MY 100th blog. Congratulations. Wow!! The only reason that I know that is my blog site told me. I love that. I feel better I am not dizzy right now. I did realize something in my meditation and energy work today. I have been uncomfortable in this body that was given me. My body is awesome, beautiful, working well so how could I hate it. Hate is a strong word but why would I not want energy in my body. Cuz it could get knocked right out of me. As it did when I was 3 years old. Well, I know now that the past is as easy to let go of as your breath right now. With all the new studies they are finding out we are not our genetics, we are not only our DNA. We definitely aren't our past lives, unless we choose too. My body has hidden my spark, my light, my passion, my love. Out of fear I couldn't let those things out into the open. So that is disrespectful to life itself and to my body also. It has been contorted and twisted trying to keep me safe from made up fears. This 100th blog is the best time to cut loose this light inside of me. This spark, this hidin me coming out. It is like coming out of the closet with compassion and understanding. Turning fear into faith, sadness into compassion and understanding, protection of the heart turns into freedom and pure love.
My challenge to you is to ask your body if you are hiding inside there? Are you protecting your heart from pain? Are you sad about things you don't even know about? Can you imagine what this can do to the depression epidemic. We think we can't get out of it. Trust me I know. I have been down the spiral and not willing to give up self-destruction. Just take a look and take some time to ask your very special body.

04-05-10

I am feeling so much better. I have been dizzy for 2 days now and that is not a whole lot of fun. It has actually been worse than this but it was bad enough I can't think straight and I can't do much.
I went to physical therapy today and yes my neck muscles were tight and stuck. These last few days I have been having trouble being in the moment and it kept getting worse and worse. I spoke of ego taking over and that takes away my natural connection to life. Loving our healthy life.
Yes, after a bad headache, the flu or anything that take us out of our natural healthy space we get really appreciative of our feeling good.
My challenge to you is to take a look at your health and see if you are taking it for granted. Is there something you could do different to feel better, have more energy or just enjoy the day more.
Maybe a food to give up, a beverage. And really be grateful if you are feeling good today. It can be taken away very fast. Have a great evening.

04-04-10

Happy Easter. The best way to have Easter this year is to not get out of my sweat pants and to do nothing but watch TV, take a nap and get the dinner ready. Yesterday I was having trouble writing this blog. And I went to a wedding and I didn't enjoy that either. I came right home and didn't go to the reception that I was looking so forward too.
This morning I still felt weird. It was ego. I was selfish again. I was self centered and had expectations of the wedding and peoples actions etc. It wasn't like that at all so what happened to me. I felt numb, tired, uninterested. Ego, not spirit. Spirit to me is love, for myself and others. This was about the bride and the groom and their love. Not me, my outfit, my friends and their reactions. This is a pattern with me. I really don't like admitting it. But it is the truth. The Celebration of Life I went to, then this wedding, it is not about me. Until today that is what I did. Now I can look at it different and do it different. It is about giving what I want. Paying attention to others. Seeing them and how wonderful they are. I have always heard give what you want to receive. Well, that is what I am going to do.
My challenge to you is to take a look at your life and ask yourself, are you giving others what you want to receive. You can start right now. Until today I did it this way and now I do it in a fresh and new way. This is as old as Jesus and even before that I am sure. Let's turn this around. I am.

04-03-10

I need some inspiration to write my blog. I have been working so much my creative life at home is on hold, or I am just soaking up lots of input to where I can create. I finished my 60 cards. The last 10 I am not as happy with but I can always redesign them. I am getting ready to go to a wedding and a reception, I really like the little outfit that I put together. Creative dressing. I have nothing. I am wondering around the house trying to come up with a creative thought. I don't have one. I am challenging you to ask yourself if you ever do that? Too much work not enough play takes the creative juices right out of me does it you? I get so drained. How does your work life effect your creativity. I know today I created more abundance and creativity in the retail world. So maybe this abundance will allow me to create more. Abundant universe loves my creativity and it brings abundance and love to everyone it touches. I am on that road. Let us say that today and not feel the void of creative thoughts in an already full mind.

04-02-10

OK, how much do you believe in abundance? I think I have had a tough time with that exact idea. I limit myself, I have attachments. Do You? I am hearing the news in the background and they are filling us with the story of lac, and not abundance. At work today I did an abundance thought process and I had an amazing morning in retail. I had mentioned that I had done an abundant dance as a joke. I really did do that but they don't need to know that. I even had drawn a picture about how abundance comes out of you and touches others.
Tend and befriend. That is the hormone I am trying to connect with. That is how women can bring prosperity back into their lives. And I believe we are having a trend of Women really learning how to be abundant with caring and cooperation not aggression or adrenaline that has been a male way in the business world. We will crush them, we will blow them out of the water. Many women took that philosophy in the work world, but it actually goes against their natural flow. How do you feel about this?
My challenge to you is to see how you feel about abundance? Do you believe the TV and then stop the possibilities of greater and greater abundance for you and your family? Well, for the first time in my life I believe in the goodness of abundance and that it has never went away. The thought process of the nation and the corporations have created this lack. Nature isn't experiencing lack. Trees, grass, plants aren't in this cycle except where mankind may have put their foot prints on life. How do you feel about this? Do you hear yourself closing up around abundance? Can you go with a natural flow not a media flow? Just take a look.

04-01-10

April Fools Day!!! I am not much of a prankster. I don't like to be pranked either. Enough about that, HA!
A challenge for the day is to see what it is you are not seeing. When you do things over and over you look over what you are doing and not at what you are doing. Taking a shower you are mowing the lawn. Doing the dishes you are reliving yesterdays conversations. Or you are complaining about cleaning up the dirty hallway. It is just going to get dirty again. Take a look at what you are not seeing. That is my challenge to me and to you.